Living In The Mind's Cage

31.

I've never lied to you,
You were unsure of what to do,
At of all the things we went through,
Everything suddenly grew,

I've never lied to you, about if I was okay,
Because in that moment I was fine, I guess you didn't believe me anyway,
You ask the questions I ask myself, but even I don't know,
These emotions I hid, are bleeding through now, you just need to see the show,

I've never lied to you, because that would be too cruel,
I can't do it anyway, because I'm already my own mule,
I can vaguely answer your questions without lying,
But even then you don't sense the feelings underneath, I am dying,

I've never lied to you, it was you who didn't ask for details,
You sit there wondering how to ask, while I steadily go off the rails,
If you really wanted to know, you just needed to say,
I'm sick and tired of being this way,

I've never lied to you, it's hard to say these things,
It's hard to explain these feelings that they bring,
Even when you ask, I'll probably shut my mouth,
Because when it comes down to it, I rely on myself, when things go down south,

If you try and I try, we could make it work,
Even in the end, I'll always be the jerk,
But when you smile at my half-hearted jokes,
And laugh at the simple things I say,
I would do anything to keep them there, every single day,

I'm sorry I can't be open, the way you are,
It's been a long journey, and it's not over by far.

A/N: Oh look I had a burst of motivation today so I guess you sorta got a double update, hopefully this motivation to write will stick with me through the week so I can update more often. But looks like I'm getting back to this rhythm again, hopefully. Anyway I didn't check this for errors tell me of any. Vote, comment what you think.
Until then.

~~RD‌P~~