Living In The Mind's Cage

51.

Will you ever know, how I'm afraid?
Just let me revel in the mistakes I made,
Even though I would rather fade,

Will you ever know, how much I cry?
Will you ever know, how much I ask myself why?

I'm unsure of who I am,
I'm unsure that I can..

I can look at you and see,
That you're everything and better than me,

I can see you, smile at me,
But I can never tell you, you're the reason that I breathe,

I can see you, through the darkest nights,
I wanna see you, when we get in fights,

I wanna tell you, you're perfect in every way,
But I know that, I have no say,

You, are the best thing I could ask for,
You, are the best thing I could hope for,
And I wouldn't ask for more,

You're the friend that everyone needs,
But I can't tell you what I see,

Because,
I can't stand out,
I have to hide in the crowd,

I can't say things out loud,

Cause I'm someone easily forgotten,
There's no need for you to feel downtrodden,

I chose a path cloaked in shadow,
I'll stay with you, but hidden, it's doesn't matter though,

I support everything you do,
I give in to your every wish,
We're friends, because I know it's true,
Nothing could be better than this,

I wanna see you smile, even for a few,
Even if we're sitting in silence and taking in the view,

I want you to be happy,
Even If I can't,
I know it sounds sappy,
But I guess I'm just a Rembrandt,

We didn't know what to expect,
We couldn't even detect,
What life had in store for us,

But, words cannot express,
How I am such a mess,
But I guess,
That you are too,

Even if we can't stand on our own,
We won't be alone,
Cause we've got each other,
We'll stay together,
Because we're tethered
In many ways,

I still just want you, to be happy,
I still just want you, to be safe
I still just want you, to have a smiling face,

Times are tough,
And we've had enough,
The slip ups, have been rough,

When I remember how we used to be,
Not so long ago,
We walked along the beach at night,
Telling our deepest woes,

Everyday has been a fight,
But I think we're finally alright,
Yea, we have those days,
Of okays,
And we'd go our separate ways,

And yet I'm still amazed,
That I still get fazed,
Everytime you step out the car,

I get so excited,
And every time that we fighted,
Doesn't matter, anymore,

Cause I won't be laying on the floor,
Tonight,
We'll be outside in the grass,
Looking at the stars, alas,

I still write about you
With everything that I've gone through,
You always seem to pop up,

Like an unexpected, expected surprise, that I wouldn't ever want to give up

A/N: So an update, it's been a while, it's sad to say that I will still be updating slowly. Once everything starts to slow down then hopefully I'll be more motivated to write and read more on here. I miss my readers that have stuck by, even when I take forever to update again. Anyways, vote, tell me what you think, how's life? 😅, well I hope I can update again soon.
Until then.

~~RDP~~