Living In The Mind's Cage

94.

I loved him

And he flew too far
Far away from me

I shielded him as best I could
From betrayers across the sea

I held him
In my arms
Bloodied, from myself

His cries will haunt me forever
With tears, blue as can be

Fat drops splattered on the ground
Grew into a puddle

I could not see
It's inky depths
As it was thick as paint

Blurry was his eyes
As he started to faint

I cradle you
To my breast
Where my heart lies

And where you'll always be

Pain and misery
Came upon you
As I try to make you see

I love you, my boy
As I always have

I'd give you my soul
And rip out my lungs
Just to ensure you're happy
And able to breathe

But you've gone astray

I wait for you
At our place
Where we'd always lay

I hear echoes of your laugh
And sniffles from your cries

Your breathing as you relax
With stardust in your eyes

I turn round and round
Knowing you aren't here

I wonder where you'd gone
Where'd you disappear?

You taunt me
As I panic
Looking for your help
While I lose myself

I want to find you
The real you
The one you reserved for me

The sweet innocence
In your eyes
As you just want to sleep

You want to be loved
I know you do
And mine isn't enough

I wish I could
Take your fractured parts
And mold them into me

I don't want you to cry my boy
As everyone leaves

They are just making room
For more people
Who will cherish you
As much as me

I will always search
For that lost boy
The one who had such hope

You shield yourself
From everyone else
But I will not be fooled

I hope I find you again one day
As you are my heart and soul

I'll stay incomplete
Until we meet

And maybe then, you'll be happy
And old

~~RDP~~