Living In The Mind's Cage

63.

I think I love the way he talks

Maybe even what he does

His smile is contagious

His laughter fills me with warmth

Hugs from him, send through me a little buzz

I think I love the way he looks at me

As if I were a rarity among many

I assure you, I'm normal

I may be a bit formal

But I can't see myself as a shiny penny

I think I love the way he looks up

As he trys to remember

Some silly thing from a game or movie

And then the face of clarity when he does, sobers me right up

I think I love the feel of his hair through my fingers

As I run my hand across his scalp

Just us sitting there peacefully, as time flies by

The feeling of the soft strands lingers

Maybe if I fantasize longer

I could just feel the brush of his mouth

I think I love his warmth

That seems to be himself

His kindness and his body heat

That seem to wrap me up

I think I could love the opportunity to love

And not just love like before

I can see clearly now and won't be blinded again

I could do this, just once more

I'm terrified of course

And shakily moving forward

I keep on standing there and he seems to get a clue

He takes my hand

I think he understands

There's certain things I can't walk through

Patiently he waits for me

Just to keep up

I want to run and leap and jump

But my limits are too small

He comes back for me

He always does

And guides me through the wall

I created this maze

I just need to go through it

I'm scared of the outside

But somehow I'll do it

I slowly walk through the broken walls

I never thought could fall

Surprise and apprehension

I stop to take a look

Back there, they all crumbled

And I stand at the last, with a door

It is cracked open

Only one thing left to do

My emotions are spoken

After all its been broken

And I think that's why I should say

I love you

A/N: Still no proper update schedule yet. I just keep putting myself in a deeper hole and the loss of a loved one doesn't get easier. Luckily I do have a little more support than I did before, as you can see with this poem. My emotions have been pretty jumbled up lately and I've been depressed. I'm really trying but it's never enough. Anyways updates are still random and probably will be for the next few months, if I want to be realistic at the rate I'm going. Vote, comment what you think, it is almost 3 AM here so I'm sorry if there's mistakes. I couldn't sleep, as usual. And I just had a lot on my mind, so I decided what's the harm in trying to make semi decent sleep deprived content? Heh I guess I will see.
Until then.

~~RDP~~