WHEN I NEEDED YOU. ( Lesbian Slow Updates.)

12

Seated in the darkness of her kitchen, Anele let the tears run down her face as she went through her pregnancy photo shoot pictures. At only sixteen she had a huge belly and a huge burden on her shoulders, she hated seeing it and so she avoided mirrors. After what Kiyoko did, she stopped going to school and did her classes online. Which helped her in isolating herself. Her mother had tried to get her into a school for pregnant teenagers but Anele has refused. It cost a lot as it was a private institution and she did not want to burden her parents more than she already had and was about to. Noticing how she had isolated herself, her parents decided to book her a photo shoot on the day she had to go in for a checkup.

At first she was mad at her parents for tricking her into a photo shoot, they had told her they were going to get something to eat only for her to find herself in front of a studio. They told her she could not leave since they had paid a lot for this and only did it so she could have some good memories of this time. Anele had kept the babies because she feared having an abortion. At school she had heard a lot of how dangerous an abortion could be after one of the former students was rumoured to have hand an abortion and lost her uterus. At that time she thought losing it was the worst thing that could happen to her as a woman.

" Babe?"

Bai turned on the lights before she could wipe her tears. After the makeup sex they had, Anele had thought Bai would sleep throughout, she slept heavily when she was exhausted.

" What are you doing in the dark? Are you crying?"

A worried Bai sat next to her, facing her, she wiped the remnants of the tears she had shed a few seconds ago. Anele loved that about her girlfriend, she was a empathetic person. Who's love language was touch but it took Anele a long time to get used to her touching her randomly. After her rape she could not stand being touched. Kyoko's brother would touch her a lot before she was raped by him. She thought nothing about his little touches since they were never sexual until that night.

" I'm sorry_ I-I found these and got lost in the past."

" Damn you used to be so skinny."

Bai said without thinking but Anele seemed not to notice her word choice or care that that was the first thing she noticed.

" For most of my pregnancy I couldn't keep food down or eat, this caused me to lose a lot of weight and make my pregnancy difficult."

" I heard about women vomiting severely during pregnancy,you had that problem too. It must've been hard for you being a foodie?"

" It's not because of that but I fell into depression during my pregnancy and food was the last thing on my mind. My parents would force me to eat and that just made me vomit the food out. Which led to me having an eating disorder during my pregnancy."

" That's possible?"

Anele went quiet thinking about her pregnancy, Bai looked up from the pictures she had in her hands. Wondering why she did not hang them up but did not want to say anything, afraid to upset her further. Bai noticed how sad she was and pulled her into a hug. She recalled how when she first met Anele, she had the same sadness to her that eventually disappeared when she became a main feature in Anele's life. Bai wondered what happened in her past to make her like this.