Anele found it hard to get out of bed this morning even though her daily alarm had woken her up thirty minutes ago. Although she had gone straight to bed after Kyoko dropped her off, she was exhausted from all the crying she did before eventually falling asleep. The drive was silent, she did not feel like talking and was grateful to Kyoko for not trying to talk but they did argue when she tried to pay her for driving her. Anele being hardheaded did not want to owe Kyoko anything, hence she thought to pay the amount it would have cost her to hire a taxi. They went back and forth about it till Anele placed the money in the cup holder then climbed out the car without looking back.
As soon as she stepped into her apartment, she broke down crying. Thinking about everything that had transpired since she got to her parents house. As she stood outside after the panic attack, after she had calmed down, she promised herself that she would never allow herself to be that vulnerable in front of the Himura's. It felt like history repeating herself itself, she felt humiliated all over again. Anele decided to force herself out of bed when she realised that she only had a few minutes to get ready for class.
She quickly wiped away her tears and forced a smile on her face, determined to put on a brave front for the outside world. Anele rushed to the bathroom, splashing her face with cold water to wake herself up and wash away any remnants of her breakdown. A breakdown she did not want but needed. For so long she has been putting on a brave face for her children and it was draining.
As she changed into her clothes, she tried to push the memories of her vulnerability out of her mind. She couldn't let herself dwell on the past, especially not now when she had so much to focus on. With a deep breath,she gathered her belongings and headed out the door.
The walk to campus helped clear her mind, the crisp morning air reminding her of the strength and resilience she possessed. She couldn't let herself be defined by the humiliating moments of her past. Anele was determined to rise above it all and create a better future for herself and her babies.
Arriving in class just in time, Anele took her seat, ready to immerse herself in the subject matter and forget about the personal struggles she had been facing. She knew that education was her ticket to a better life and she couldn't afford to let anything distract her from that goal.
Throughout the day, Anele focused on her studies, engaging in class discussions and diligently taking notes. Despite the occasional pang of sadness that threatened to resurface, she pushed through, determined to prove her strength and resilience not only to herself but to others as well. Byeol would ask her from time to time if she was okay and she would reply with " I'm fine."
That was not the case when she walked out of her university to be met with Kenji. Who was in a wheelchair but all Anele could see was the man who pinned her down on his bed. He had managed to lure her into the bedroom by saying he had something he wanted her to give Kyoko. Anele's palms started to sweat, her ears began ringing and her thoughts raced with fear and confusion. She couldn't believe that she had bumped into Kenji again after what had happened last night.
"I'm not here to hurt you."
The memories of that horrific night came rushing back, overwhelming her senses. It felt like she was hallucinating. Her panic attack was coming on, this was the last place she wanted to lose control of herself at.
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