You're The Music That's Been Playing In My Head: Book 3

Luka Chapter Thirty-Eight

I sadly smiled down at the locket (y/n) had given me, I still missed her dearly. I wasn't even sure if she wanted to see me so I've been keeping my distance. I let out a sigh when Mom knocked on my door. "How are you doing Luka?" "I'm alright Mom," I tell her, she shouldn't have to worry about me.

She frowns at me. "Well alright ain't good enough for me so I went out and got you a ticket to Harry Clown's show tonight," She hands me the ticket and I pull her in for a grateful hug before taking off to get to the show on time. When I got there though I'm met with a surprise, (y/n) was here and I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion, she wasn't a fan of Harry's work. "(y/n) hi!" I call out to her, shocking myself, guess I missed her a lot more than I realized. But thankfully she approaches me and gives me an akward hi back.

"What are you doing here? You don't usually come to Harry Clown's shows," I start a conversation, hoping the situation will become less akward and she gestures over to Marinette and Adrien as she responds. "You know, the usual Marinette shenanigans."  "I don't think Adrien is enjoying it," I comment while watching Adrien's confused and worried reaction to the skit Marinette was doing. "Well she never actually confirmed with Adrien if he was a fan of Harry Clown or not..." She trails off and we fall silent. I hated the fact that we couldn't talk easily to each other anymore especially since I wanted to know how she's been these past few weeks, how was it possible to be this akward around the one you loved?

"So how have you been?" I tried again and was met with a dry answer. "Fine. I'm fine," She goes back to watching Marinette who ran off from Adrien crying and it didn't take long for (y/n) to chase after her. "Nice work Luka, she wasn't ready to talk to you..." I grumble at myself as I head to my seat and wait for the show to start. The curtains draw back and some jester-looking guy with a mask glares at the crowd that was laughing at him. "So it's true. You'll never take me seriously," His face changes and he honks his nose and suddenly I'm overwhelmed with anger at him and everyone else for not making me forget about the break-up. 

At one point I was shoved into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror with contempt for myself. If I wasn't such a horrible boyfriend (y/n) never would've left me. How could I be so pathetic?! I continued like this for who knows how long when the miraculous ladybugs flew past me and I calmed down.

What was all that? I shake my head as I go back to my seat when I hear (y/n) call out to me. "Hey," Old habits having me reach for a hug and I stop myself, don't push her away by overstepping boundaries again. "Hey." "Sorry for running off on you like that I just..." "Felt akward and don't know how to talk to me?" I ask and she nods. "It's okay, if I'm being honest this is akward for me too and it's taking a lot of willpower not to just grab your hand and hold you close but I would like to move on from this and at least continue to be friends if you want or can," I tell her, so she'd know what I want and hopefully she'll tell me what she wants.

"I'd like that but I think at least I need a little more time to figure out how to move forward." She tells me, grabbing my hand and lightly squeezing it before letting go and I instantly miss the warmth from her hand. "I can understand that," I notice Marinette and Adrien in their seats laughing. "It seems those two are getting along again," She nods and the show starts and for the next hour and a half, I just enjoy (y/n) being beside me.