𝗥𝗮𝗱𝗶𝗮𝗻𝘁 +K. Bakugo X Reader+

67.[tw] Love

TW MENTIONS OF SUICIDE

tw mentions of suicide

You were sitting on the colored floor, humming happily as you painted your new painting. The elevator doors opened and you sprung to your feet.

"Katsuki! Izuku!" You smiled widely. You placed a painted hand onto the glass wall. "I can move around freely now. I'm doing a lot better."

They were both in for surprise, you were so close to dying just a couple of weeks ago.

"I made so many paintings! Wanna see them? Oh wait, I want to hear about Kinsei first." You laughed, "or maybe you guys are eager to tell me something?"

Izuku dropped to his knees and placed a hand against yours. "Oh, (Y/n). I'm so glad you're feeling better."

"I'm sorry for worrying you. My therapist worked me through my past trauma. It was holding a lot of weight on me. A lot more than I had thought." You got to your knees. "I really wanted to die a while ago. I thought that maybe I was...you know, done for. I didn't think I had anyone but then my therapist saved me. I seriously love her so much. Oh, and she wants me to get in touch with my inner child. She says that once I heal her, I'll be able to...hey, Izuku. Why are you crying?"

"N-nothing." He wiped away his ongoing tears. "You look better than you ever have before, (Y/n). It reminds me of when you were younger. You were so happy and always so cheerful, like a carefree bunny running around. I wanted to be like you. But then you lost it all when you grew up. Mom had a lot to do with it but I...I'm so glad you are fine."

"I understand. I'm sorry. For everything. For pushing you away. I wanted you guys to stay away so that you could-"

"Become heroes without you as a burden. So we would be safe from the hero commissioner. So that we could become successful heroes. Is that what you wanted?" Katsuki interrupted, refusing to meet your eyes.

"Yes. That's what I wanted. I wanted to hurt the both of you so much that you would hurt me. That way, I could get rid of any attachment. And then, I could just stay here in solitude and repent for my sins."

Katsuki felt his heart hurt.

"I almost went insane. I thought about destroying the prison and drowning but I figured it wouldn't work because of my quirk."

It hurt the way you were talking about suicide so easily.

"I'm feeling a lot better. I had to let of the teddy bear. And now, I can forgive myself. Forgive but not forget."

Katsuki finally looked at you. You were smiling that smile that you used to show before you dated him. His eyes widened and he felt himself falling in love all over again.

"Hey." You tilted your head as Katsuki leaned down. "I said some real mean shit that day. I was angry at you for toying-well, pretending to toy with me. I wanted you to be hurt because I was hurt."

"I'm sorry. I don't think we can ever recover from this but I still want to say that I'm sorry. You had every right to be angry at me." You gulped with a small sad smile pulling at your lips.

"We can recover from this. We understand each other. Next time, fucking tell me or give me hints about your true intentions."

"That time, I wanted you to be hurt. I didn't want to give hints because I wanted you to-"

"Not think about you. I get it."

You smiled at him and nodded. He leaned down further. "I'm sorry for saying that I was toying with you. I don't mean it. I don't mean it now or ever. I'm bluffing if I ever do say it."