𝗥𝗮𝗱𝗶𝗮𝗻𝘁 +K. Bakugo X Reader+

84. Waiting

Can you hear me?

You were four.

Staring at your brother play with your mother. She was hiding under the covers as Izuku came running in with his All Might pajamas. He looked so happy.

It must've been nice for him.

And a toddler could only understand so little. You started to tear up at the fact that your mother wasn't playing with you. You were holding your All Might figurine. You only got it because Izuku got one.

He insisted that you get one too because you were his twin. And whatever he got, you had to get. And because of that, you got more toys than you should have had.

"Oh no! Don't cry!" Izuku came running to you, sitting beside you. "What's wrong? You can play!"

You pushed him away. He was the source of your pain so why did you have to be nice to him? Izuku started to cry too, affected by your cries. Not because you pushed him away, but because you were sad.

From the start, Izuku always had extreme sympathy for others. And you were selfish. No, you were a human. You just wanted to be loved, like any other human.

Your mother came running to spank you. Izuku begged her to stop because he could feel your pain. It was just pain everywhere.

Growing older, Izuku was bullied by Katsuki. You took it upon yourself to fight to pay back Izuku. And also to gain attention from your mother. Katsuki was your nemesis. He hated you. You hated him.

Just hatred.

And the day Izuku betrayed both of your trusts, Katsuki was someone you could relate to. He comforted you in his own way. He may have been a bully but he cherished the relationship of fighting to blow off steam.

And when you started to develop feelings, he pushed you away. When you got hurt, he pushed you away even further. You knew him better than anyone, second to Izuku. You knew he only pushed you away because he failed to protect you.

And then he trained like hell so that there wouldn't be a next time. He hurt you so badly that you cried for hours. You made up with Katsuki before your relationship was strained because of trust.

And then you were depressed because of the bullies from society. Beating you down because you were quirkless. Depression came to you, hard and fast. You collapsed from malnourishment and recovered with Katsuki.

However, a deal from Hawks led you to your imprisonment. You pushed everyone away, leading to your drive into insanity. Your therapist saved you. She was the only one who understood you, she knew each time you were about to go insane. And every time, she led you out of the darkness.

But the moment you were in the light, you were driven back by the hero society. Killing your own father. He was a serial killer and the only parent you had that would protect you until the very end.

It led to this hellscape.

Everything led up to this.

From when you were young, to now, everything, every little action, it all added up. And now you stand on top of your place, the wind making your clothes billow. Your horns shone in the darkness as your eyes glowed golden, the only different color in your red world.

Waiting for anyone to take the first step.

Waiting for the world to come after you.

Waiting for him.

Waiting.

I'm scared.