the ultimatum

1st therapy

It was the day before the ultrasound, but it was the day of Tim's first therapy appointment.

"you're going to be okay Tim." Lucy says softly as she places a bowl of cereal in front both of the twins.
"Yeah." He nods, being quiet and not him self.

"Is daddy sad?" Arlo asks chewing and squinting his eyes at Tim.
"What? No, no, daddy isn't sad" Tim says immediately.
"You look sad. You are not as happy daddy  as you usually are" Avalynn says and crosses her arms.

Tim sighs softly and approaches the twins and kisses them on the head and looks at them both in their blue eyes that match his.
"Daddy is fine, he's okay. I promise." He says smiling softly.
"Okay!" Avalynn claps eating a spoonful of cereal and instantly dropping milk everywhere.
"Oh gosh. Okay you two carry on eating and I'll get you cleaned." Tim says and walks back to the coffee machine.

"you can head into work if you want . I'll take the twins to preschool because I have the morning off anyway" Tim suggests and Lucy nods.
"Yeah. I will. I'll have paperwork to complete and catch up on so I don't have to tomorrow when we are at that ultrasound" Lucy smiles softly and kisses Tim and picks up her bag, says bye to the twins and leaves.

Tim turns and sees the twins have made a complete mess, he sighs and smiles
"Come on you two, let's get you two cleaned" he chuckles.

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"mr Bradford?" A young brunette woman calls out in the waiting room, Tim looks up and nods and gets up and follows her in.

They sit down opposite eachother, Tim fiddles with his hands nervously, he looks around the room to take in his surroundings nervously before turning back to the therapist.

"I am doctor london..Blair London. And you are?" She asks calmly flicking through a file.
"You literally have my information there." Tim snaps nervously, he already didn't like this but he knows he needs to keep going to get better for Lucy and the twins and him self.

Dr London shuts the file.
"Coming here, to therapy is probably one of the bravest things you have ever done, asking for help and accepting it isn't being weak it's being strong but If you want your therapy to work you need to cooperate." She says and Tim rolls his eyes and nods.
"Tim, Timothy Bradford." He says and dr London smiles.
"Great. Tim. Okay. What's your goal for this therapy?" She asks and Tim shrugs.

"Be a better man, be a better fiancé and dad."Tim says and dr London nods.
"Okay. Let's start there, why don't you think you're enough?" She asks and tim doesn't reply.
"Tim you know, you don't need to be strong..your weakness is a part that makes you human" she says softly and Tim sighs and considers everything that she just said and nods.

"I've messed up alot. Everything I do I just mess everything up, I ruin everything. I haven't had anything good in life" Tim states, Tim and dr London talk for a while longer, she gets to know Tim abit more and he lets his walls drop.

It was the end of his first session and overall he thinks he can tolerate this.
"I will see you in a week. Good luck on your ultrasound tomorrow Sargent Bradford." She says smiling and walking Tim out.
"Thanks doc" he says and leaves, he feels like a new man already and it's been only one session.. but he knows that the sessions are going to get me brutal, this session was only to get to know each other.