You Rejected Me Alpha, Remember?

Chapter 060

  Chapter 060
 
 
 
 
   Myra's point of view
 
 
 
 
   Lucas needed to believe that I'm still on his side, and that wasn't hard to convince when my actions could warp his thoughts. I told him his sister has been trying to talk to me, but because he said to always avoid her and keep my distance, I've never granted the sister the audience she's desperately seeking.
 
 
   He wanted me to talk to the sister, make her trust me by pledging a false loyalty to her. I'm suppose to find out what the sister's plan to destroy him was.
 
 
   We spent the whole afternoon together, I told him about my decision to join his warriors in training so I can learn some defensive techniques. He objected, but agreed after a while of persuasion.
 
 
   He believes he's strong enough to protect me, and would make sure what happened the last time wouldn't repeat itself.
 
 
   That was when he asked about Lisa, he wanted to know her whereabouts so he could her dumped in a dungeon or faced his wrath he said. But I have come to know better.
 
 
   True to my words, I didn't know where Lisa is and that's what I told him. I last saw her at the infirmary, unconscious, Logan was also with her.
 
 
   He told me he'll back before dinner and needed to apprehend Lisa, that she could still be a danger to me so he needed to find her.
 
 
   I didn't even argue, I just smiled at him, gave him a quick kiss and bade him bye.
 
 
   'I hated that I once trusted him,' Salome criticized, and she wasn't the only who felt bad.
 
 
   I did more than trusted that asshole, I accepted him, cherished him, and above all; I loved him. Love is not for the likes of me, I'm not meant to know love or to have it.
 
 
   My parents who loved me didn't live long enough to watch me blossom. Logan claimed to love me, yet was the bane of my existence. And Lucas, he showed me he loves me, I believed in his love, only for me to wake up to the reality behind his actions.
 
 
   "You're lost in thought," Logan's voice interrupted the turmoil that was my mind, I looked around and there he was at the center of the room.
 
 
   Not physically, rather in that stupid astral whatever of is. What part of leave me the fuck alone doesn't he get? Or he has an acoustic sense of comprehension?
 
 
   I don't or will never want him in my life, there's no redemption for him. Every time I see him, I see my pasts with him. How he made my life hellish simply because I existed.
 
 
   That is so hard for me to unseen, so hard for me to forgive, too hard for me to look past and move forward.
 
 
   His mere presence reminds me of the experiences, how I was always helpless against him.
 
 
   "What do you want?" There was no doubt to venomous my tone hailed. "I don't want to see you, I'm tired of seeing you. Leave me alone and get out of my life!" I didn't care if it's a hologram in front of me or a cloudy version, I despise every version of him.
 
 
   "Jeez. So much for the guy who just saved your life from an eternal nightmare of a past." He huffed, totally undeterred by the level of my anger.
 
 
   "I never asked you to,"
 
 
   "But the thing is I owe you. I owe you more than that, I owe you my life, I owe you a lot. That's the thing. You need to know or understand now that I'm going nowhere, not until you've forgiven me, trust me, offer me my second chance and allow me show you just how much I love you, I will not be leaving you or your life alone," he countered with seriousness.
 
 
   And instead of my blood to calm down in rage, it accelerated in a vast speed. Courtesy of his words.
 
 
   "Did you love me when you were breaking my bones?" My head angled a squinted gaze at him, "Or when you locked me up for basic stuffs? Did you love me when you treated me unfairly?!! Huh?!!!!!"
 
 
   "I didn't know why I did all those things." His voice broke and emotions poured into his face. "I thought it was for our future, to protect you from my father but it's a lie. That was like a cover for a bigger revelation, a revelation I'm yet to discover. I did all those things for no reason, I understood that when you left me, when I rejected you and you accepted my rejection. I realized then just how bad I've screwed up, how bad I've messed up my life. Safe to say we were jinxed Myra, we were jinxed."
 
 
   I flared into laughter. I didn't know which was funnier, the tears in his eyes or his weak hold on reality. Jinxed? I laughed even harder.
 
 
   'I mean what if he has a point?'
 
 
   "Seriously not now Salome. You're the smart one, notice that he's trying to lure us back to him. There is no point in his rubbish-"
 
 
   'Have you ever seen him cry? Myra he has tears in his eyes, and I'm not just the smart one, you just fail to notice the things I notice,' Salome cut me off before I could conclude my take.
 
 
   She was right. I've never seen Logan cry. He's an egotistical narcissist who would rather walk on nails than display weakness in front of anybody. I've known him to be an asshole, and a proud jerk for most of my life, but never for a weak tart.
 
 
   My laughter sealed as I watched him for observation, his eyes were filled with water and his lips quivered.
 
 
   Why did he have to break me? Why did he have to be such a monster to me?
 
 
   "Myra please I am for real," his eyes twitched with sadness. "I know you can see there's no pretense to what I feel or what I am expressing, so consider the sincerity of my feelings when you chose your response."
 
 
   The air had gone thick and tense. I didn't know what to say or how to react. Salome was right, Logan wasn't pretending or luring us back to any trap.
 
 
   However, I can't forgive him. The other thing that was right was the fact that when I look at him as I'm doing right now, all I see is my past with him.
 
 
   I can try to forgive him, to move on from our past but he needs to disappear and not be around. I can forgive him by forgetting him. What I can't do is love him, is to accept him, is to cherish him and give him that second chance he wanted.
 
 
   'But he never had a chance, did he?' Salome has got to be kidding me.
 
 
   "He had the chance to show me he loves me, or did you forget he was our first mate? He had every chance to be the man I've always wanted him, yet acted by his stupid Jinx theory and rejected me. Ugh." Do I really have to explain to her. She knows this just as much as I do.
 
 
   "Myra, your silence is also not a response. Can we talk? I want to see you."
 
 
   "No!" I declined sharply. The last thing I want to do is face him physically, he still has an edge for interaction with this astral whatever, if it was a physical meet-up, he'd be out of my face before he could make the slightest point.
 
 
   "But why? I just wish to explain things to you."
 
 
   I sighed, got off the bed and walked over to where he stood. "You need to know that I can't forgive you. I know you're not lying to me or luring me into any trap back with you, just you've broke me more than you can fix me so there's no coming back to us. You need to let me go just like I'm letting you go, you-"
 
 
   "There's something you need to know about yourself, about your birth pack. I never wanted you to know this, but I feel like you deserve the truth and if I want you to trust me, then I should start telling you the secrets I hide."
 
 
   What could he have to tell me about my past? Or birth pack? Wasn't I born a rogue or is this some kind of tactic to get me to a physical meet-up with him?
 
 
   "I will be in your training room, meet me there," he added and then disappeared.
 
 
   'Do you think he's for real with that?'
 
 
   "You're asking me? Aren't you the smart one, the queen of observation?"
 
 
   'I saw we go check it out, we still have the mystery about the death of your parents to solve, so this might be our starting point. Let's find out where you're from.'
 
 
   I want to do that, but how would Logan know about where I'm from?