Dear Austin,
I turned 18 today. That makes this my 4th birthday without you. I suppose that with each one I will miss you a little less. I've been going on a lot of walks. Getting outside is really good for my mental health. Sometimes I listen to music. But I'm training my brain to be okay with being alone, with silence. Sometimes, I cry. A lot. Out of nowhere. Sometimes it feels so overwhelming. But then I remember that I have Eleanor, and my family, and that Will finally has someone who makes him happy, and then I know that everything is going to be okay. I hope you know that I'm doing better, day by day. I love you.
Kayla
