26. Today you would be 26 years old today, Mary. I got lots of signs from you today. The s'mores goldfish made me stop in my tracks. I haven't seen those in years, since you last had them playing chubby bunny. And then seeing 1D suddenly pop up on Twitter, I could hear your voice in my head fangirling over your "babies". Although I cannot imagine how you would feel about it considering the death of Liam. I will always wonder what you would be doing if you were still here. Seeing Savannah celebrate her birthday still makes me think of you. What would you be doing? And who would you be? I'll always wonder. It's also almost your anniversary. I don't know how I'll deal with it. So many years without you and birthdays passing are so hard.
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grief & relief
RandomPublished July 8th, 2017. Just writing my thoughts about a loss that has recently happened to me.. My grief along with very mixed feelings. All real. Very personal and just a journal.
