You Belong To Me- Part 2 (KAYLOR)

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"Karlie, can I talk to you?" Taylor asked as she stood in the doorway.

Karlie got up and followed her wife into the bedroom. The two sat by their private pool as Taylor began.

"I'm sorry for how I acted earlier. I don't blame you for being angry with me. I think we both said things that we probably regret saying right now but meant at the time they were said. I really don't want to fight with you but I'm really upset with you. This may have started with me being jealous but it ended with you just being down right mean. I get that women are attracted to you. I can't blame them for that. You're gorgeous and truly the sweetest person I've ever met. But sometimes I feel like you forget you're married. It's like the attention is a high to you or something. I sometimes look at you and wonder if I'm enough for you. Your actions make me feel like I'm inadequate at times."

"Aside from that, you left. You promised me in the treehouse that you'd never leave me and yet you did. That's what I'm the most upset over. You lied to me.
And you did it like, it was no big deal. I love you more than anything in this entire world but you being able to just pick up and leave so easily makes me feel like one day you will leave and you won't be back. When we were waiting for you at dinner, Austin asked me why you not being there, didn't really phase me. Although I didn't tell him this, the answer to that question is this. As much as I love you, I'm not going to stress myself out and risk the health of our daughter. Me arguing with you is not that important to me. Not only that, I have to prepare myself for the day that you do walk out and never come back because right now, I don't believe that that's not a possibility anymore."

"If this is too much for you....if I'M too much for you, then just make a decision and stick to it. I'm not perfect and I'm fully aware of that, but I've stuck to all of my promises with you but you can't say that you've done the same. Maybe you got married too soon. Maybe you didn't or don't love me as much as you thought you did. Maybe deep down inside you regret us or felt pressured into marrying me. I don't know what it is but I don't want to be dragged around and be your wife of convenience."

"What you've done for my mom over the past month has been something that I can never repay you for. She loves you so much, both of my parents do and you've given Austin and I memories that we'll cherish forever. I want to finish out this vacation, continuing to make those memories. I love you Karlie, but you need to make a decision."

Taylor got up off of the lounge chair and stepped over to Karlie who was wiping away her tears. She bent down and kissed her forehead as she said, "Like I said before, I'm always gonna love you. Right now, maybe it's you that really does need a break from me. Maybe it'll be a good idea for you to stay with your mom for the rest of the trip, or if you want your own room, away from me, then just let me know the location of where you're at, in case there's an emergency. I've just come too far within myself to risk the one person I trust more than anything, to continue to make false promises like everyone else. There was a time when you had left me and you said that it was more important for you to not lose sight of yourself. Well, now it's time for me not to lose sight of mine. I don't want you to give me a response to anything that I just said. I've heard the 'I'm sorry's' and the 'I'll never leave you' speeches before. I won't pretend like everything is perfect. I'm sure everyone will know that we're having issues. I'll be cordial to you, if you choose to stay around for the rest of the trip."

Taylor kissed the top of her wife's head as she walked back inside and got into bed.

Karlie took a few minutes to just sit there, silently wiping away her tears. She eventually got up and sat on the edge of the bed as her wife was curled up on her side.

"I know you don't want to hear me say I'm sorry."

Karlie repositioned herself to kneeling on the floor, so she could look into her wife's crystal blue eyes.

"I'm an asshole Taylor. I don't even know what else to say right now because I've hurt you and it's not fair. Will you please give me another chance?"

Taylor smiled as she cupped the side of her wife's face and leaned in, giving her a soft gentle kiss on the lips. "I'll always give you a second chance but second chances don't mean anything, if you don't ultimately learn from your mistakes and change your actions. Right now, I need to continue to work on me and my feelings. So, go to sleep and get some rest. I love you, but I don't forgive you, not right now anyway. You really hurt me by your actions. I won't sit here and keep reliving the same thing over and over. I've worked too hard to get where I am with all of the bad things that have happened to me in my life and I'm still working on them. I just thought that I'd be working through those things with you, not having to add you to that pile and having to learn how to work through you too."

Taylor kissed her cheek this time as she said, "I'm going to sleep now. Have fun surfing tomorrow. I'm gonna spend time with my mom and give you space."

Taylor wiped away her wife's tears. "Someone once told me I was too pretty to cry. So are you. Goodnight Karlie."

The model nodded her head as she got up and walked out of the bedroom.

"Hey did you guys work everything out?" Kristine asked as her other sisters and Austin looked on.

Karlie gave no response. She just went straight to her mother's bedroom.

"Hey, I wasn't expecting you." Tracy said as she began to sit up in bed. "Hey, what's the matter Kar? What are the tears for?"

"I've fucked up one too many times. Taylor wants her space now. I think she's gonna leave me and if she does, I can't blame her."

Karlie laid on the bed, resting her head on her mother's lap as she began to sob. Tracy just stroked her hair as she could see the hurt in her daughters face. As much as she hated to see Karlie cry, she knew that maybe this is exactly what she needed to experience to make her realize that she really and truly has one hell of a wife. She just hoped that the two could work it out in the end.