You Belong To Me- Part 2 (KAYLOR)

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The first night in Nashville was great. Not only was Taylor in the audience supporting her friend, but she also came on stage, at Selena's request, sending the fans into a frenzy.

"Tay, that was AWESOME. Thank you so much for coming out on stage. They loved you."

"No problem, it was fun. It brought back a lot of memories. I remember the shows that you came out and surprised my fans. Geez, those were the days, weren't they? It seems like just yesterday, that was my life and now, everything is so different."

Taylor looked down at her hands, as she played with the hem of her skirt.

"Tay, you ok? You seem sad."

"I'm fine. Just thinking, that's all."

"So tell me. What's on your mind?"

"I miss certain parts of my life that I don't experience anymore, like touring and writing music. I tried a while back to write and I managed to create enough songs to do another album but the songs are really dark. It was during the time that Karlie and I were having major problems and I don't want to share those songs with the world. I wrote other stuff too, but I just don't have the time to dedicate myself to it. When I decide to write an album, I want a goal as to when it will be finished. And right now, I can't give myself those kinds of deadlines. Not with two kids who need constant attention. Don't get me wrong, I love my children and I love being a mother. It's truly the most rewarding accomplishment I've ever had. I don't know, I guess I just miss the fans. Hearing them chant my name. Knowing they dedicated so much of their life and time, to me. They were always so vested in everything I was doing. It just makes me sad sometimes."

"Well, get back into it. Your fans love you Tay. They'd go crazy if you released another album and I'm sure they would take it straight to the top of the charts. Have you talked to Karlie about this?"

"A long time ago I did and she said that she'd support me if I decided to go back to work and I'm sure that stands true today as well. It's just that, before Noah was born, I complained a lot about Karlie always working late and dedicating so much of her time to her company. Eventually, she built a strong enough business to not have to be there everyday. Then she started only going to the office three times a week and I still found something to complain about. Again, she altered her schedule and was only going in twice a week. Eventually she scaled even THAT back to once a week and a conference call. And now she does like three conference calls a week and pops in the office like twice a month. My point is, is that she did all of that to make ME happy because I wanted her home. And now, I get to have her all day, everyday and I love that. But how unfair will it be for me to go back to work and begin dedicating my time to a studio? That's like me saying that my job is more important than her job."

"Taylor, people have children and careers all the time. I'm sure you and Karlie can make it work. You both love the jobs you had and I'm sure she'd probably enjoy going back to work too. Famous people have nannies all the time."

"HAVE YOU MET MY WIFE? HAHAHA. Karlie will NOT hire a nanny. That was something we decided on before we even had kids. I was even shocked when she allowed Mikayla to go to work with her and stay in the daycare downstairs. Granted, every person in there had an extensive background check but still. On days Mikayla went, she was only there for a couple of hours when Kar had a meeting and then she stayed with Karlie the rest of the time. Neither one of us would want them to be raised by strangers all day long. Plus, Mikayla will be starting preschool in the fall, which I'm not thrilled about but we decided it's for the best because she's not around kids her own age all the time and she's starting to get into this bratty/spoiled stage. I can't tour without my family but I can't pull her out of school either. I'm just so torn."