Torn Between Reality - Zerrie (Completed)

Shock, Anxiety & Memories - Chapter 32

Hey Beauty's! So I want to apologize in advance for the lack of Zayn chapters!!! We've seen so much of Perrie and barely any Zayn for like, three chapters. But Zayn will have a P.O.V. in the next chapter, so yippy! So, without further ado, here is CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO.
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|....Perrie's P.O.V....|
 

Staring at my phone screen in utter shock, worry and hesitation, I slammed it down firmly. This wasn't what I expected. I mean, I knew he would want to catch up eventually, due to the fact we've barely seen each other for a few months. And every time we did see each other, Zayn was there and Louis wasn't too happy. He knew I was happily married to Zayn, and he couldn't accept that. I was still trying to reason with him, I just had to take it slow.

Running a hand through my blonde hair, I bit at my bottom lip. What was I to say? I couldn't just tell him, "Sure, why not!" it didn't happen that way. Life wasn't that easy, and it wasn't that simple. I had to tell him off. But then again, I had also promised to meet him today. Well, I didn't actually mean face-to-face! Come on!

After giving it a little more thought, I picked up my phone, and began typing in my response.

SecretBee47:
                        Sure! But tomorrow. I'll be sort of busy today. I have to do a lot. Cooking, cleaning - just a lot of things. Hope you understand!  

I quickly thought of a lie. I was supposed to tell him off but I couldn't! I couldn't keep hiding anymore. I needed to see him so I could tell him up close and personal. I had a duty, I was married to somebody else. Louis needed to know that I loved Zayn, not him. I liked Louis, yes. But alone. I wouldn't say I loved him. If I loved him, he would've been the man I married. The man I promised to love forever. The man I share vows with.

Louis...isn't that man.

Waiting anxiously for a reply, I began to clean up around the house, dusting off knickknacks and sweeping the floors. When I heard the 'ding' from my phone, my heart picked up its pace.

I rushed to the phone -basically throwing myself at it- and looked at the text. I frowned when I saw it was just a text from my friend Jesy.

Jesy:
       Hey! Long time no see!

Perrie:
            Hi.

Jesy:
       How are you?

Perrie:
           I'm okay. How about yourself?

After I sent that message, I decided to quickly type in an excuse to stop talking to her. Wrong, I know, but I was too anxious to text anyone other than Louis.

Perrie:
          I'll text you later. I'm a little busy.  

Waiting was the worst thing ever. It felt like I was waiting to get a call from a doctor, with bad news! The waiting was agonizing, and I just wanted it to go away.

Why wasn't he texting me back? What was he doing?

Plopping down on the couch, I sighed, closing my eyes and resting my hands over them. I could not believe this. I was going to see Louis tomorrow, and that was a bad thing and a good thing. Bad because I didn't want to see him - good because I had to face him some day.

Finally, the 'ding' alerted me again and I quickly grabbed my phone from the coffee table, looking expectantly at my screen. It was Louis! His text read:

Louis:
          But u said that yesterday. Ur always "busy" now. U better not lie. 2morrow it is. I'm expecting 2 see u. ;)

SecretBee47:
                       If I was lying, I wouldn't make arrangements.

Those were my last words before he replied:

Louis:
         Maybe u have a point. :)

I didn't reply as I sat my phone down, sighing in relief. I had been waiting for nothing. Nothing important, at least.

Walking up to my room, I decided on what to wear out with Louis. Then I took a bath, dressing in a white top and black jeans, throwing on some socks. Pulling my hair into a high ponytail, I then added some light makeup.

After getting lunch started, I awaited the arrival of Zayn so I could see my beautiful Jasper.

I was happy that Zayn loved Jasper. I was so afraid of him rejecting me that I left him without a warning. I felt bad for doing that to him, but with time, I managed to move on. And I don't think my feelings for Zayn were as strong now as they had been before. But that was fine. Everyday I found myself falling deeper and deeper in love with him. I loved him. Nothing would change that.

Gently placing a piece of cheese over the bologna sandwiches, I put the other piece of bread on top and wrapped the sandwiches in plastic, then I put them into the refrigerator. I turned around and smiled. It felt good not being alone anymore. 

Before Zayn and I reunited and got back together, I lived in a small, one-bedroom house. It was quiet and lonely. The only sounds that were ever heard, was either Jasper's small whimpers or the television playing some show. I didn't have a dog, I didn't have a cat. I didn't really even have a life. I had a beautiful baby boy and myself, balancing a small job. I even had a babysitter.

Here with Zayn, I don't need to work, I don't need a T.V., I don't need a babysitter, and I don't need an animal companion. Though, don't get me wrong, I loved Seth. I was so thankful to Zayn for getting me a cat. Not only did he get me a cat, but he also got me an expensive cat.

Smiling at all the old memories, I giggled a bit, before I heard the door knob being unlocked by a key. I knew it Zayn, and as soon as the door opened, I welcomed him with a hug and a kiss. 

I loved my life with Zayn. No one, and nothing, could or would change that.

A/N
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