Torn Between Reality - Zerrie (Completed)

Stress, Feelings & Kisses - Chapter 34

|...Perrie's P.O.V...|
 

The following week had been harder than ever. I was stressed out due to more than one thing. The first thing: Zayn and I had barely spent anytime together because he was always working.
The second thing: Louis and I were still quite serious and I was literally beating myself up.
The third thing: I had to take care of Jasper all by myself while Zayn was working, not to mention Seth.
The forth thing: Whenever Zayn and I did have a chance to spend time together neither of us wanted to be near the other. All we could do was fight and it was beginning to irritate me. I was just like, I don't want to keep fighting with you every single chance, can you shut up. But he would continue going.

So the day after Zayn had taken Jasper out with him to go shopping, I met up with Louis while he was working.

*Flashback*

Pulling my boots on, I grabbed my jacket and pulled it over my arms, wrapping a scarf around my neck and grabbing my glasses. I put them over my eyes and then began to get the baby ready. I dressed him in a baby blue t-shirt, and some jeans, putting a beanie over his head. After putting his little booties on his feet, I picked him up, and then we left the house.

Securely locking him into his carseat, I put his baby blanket over his body, giving him a kiss on the cheek. "Are you ready for our drive," I said in a baby voice.

When sitting in the drivers seat, I pulled out of the driveway, driving onto the road.

I wasn't ready to see Louis but at the same time, I was. I wanted to talk to him, but I didn't want to talk to him. I missed him but yet, I didn't. I was a mess, and there was no way I wanted anything to happen with Louis, it just couldn't. I was in love with Zayn and whatever feelings I had for Louis had to be pushed away. It was a bad thing and a good thing. Bad because I didn't want to push Louis away. Good because I couldn't allow my feelings for Louis to come between anything Zayn and I had together.

But, who was I kidding. I knew it would be easier said than done.

I pulled up to the diner we were supposed to meet at, and parked in an empty slot. Cutting off the engine, I unbuckled myself from the seatbelt and opened my door, hopping out. After getting Jasper from the car, I shut and locked the door. Slowly, I approached the diner. My heart was beating rapidly and my palms began to sweat. Before I walked into the diner, I stood and took a few deep breaths, inhaling, exhaling. Building up courage, I simply pushed through the door, my head held high, with even breaths.

"Hey!" Louis signaled to me, waving his arm. Giving him a small smile, I made my way over to the table, sliding into the booth with Jasper on my lap.

"Hello," I said, smiling.

"I thought I would never hear that pretty voice of yours," he said, causing a blush to creep its way upon my face.

"It's nice to see you, too, Louis." The waitress walked over and gave us a smile.

"Cute baby you two have their," she said, smacking on some gum.

"Thank you, but-"

"Isn't he though?! Thanks!" Louis exclaimed, cutting me off. I shifted uncomfortably, looking anywhere but at him.

"What can I get for you two?" she asked.

"Do you want anything, babe?" Louis asked me.