PHOTOGRAPH (JIBEA)

44 - PRESENT

BEA POV

What happened during the three days outing in Batangas was one of the most happiest memory with her.

The best three days of my life. We are always together, I make her feel special, she makes me feel special too.

We got to spend our moments together. I got to sleep beside the person I love while hugging her and she is hugging me tighter.

We kiss each other to our hearts content, though bitin kasi hindi pa pwede. But being with her is more than enough.

But two weeks after that, was the memory I just wanted to forget. It was the memory that I wish should have never happened.

It was the memory that I regretted the most. A memory I don't want to go back and I don't want to remember anymore. A memory I just wanted to forget.

Everything that had happened started from the airport where we bump into each other and upto the days where we spent our happiest time together in Batangas for three days, belongs to the past now. Yeah, it was all part of the past.

It was all part of the memory now. It was all part of the past, where I can only look back. A yesterday that cannot be undone.

In every part of our memory together that I remembered, katumbas ay isang patak ng luhang tumutulo ng kusa mula sa aking mga mata.

I am trying to recall the happy days we had together and upto the days she was hurting so much because of me.

I messed up. I messed up big time. How could I ever let go of a Jia Morado? How in the world, have I hurt her? I made a mistake that caused me my happiness.

I was here sitted at the bench right now staring at her, away from her, she looks so happy.

It is always like these everyday. She was there, I was here. She was happy, I was hurting.

She was happy with him. Yap, sila na ni Miguel yun ang alam ko.

We used to be like that. I used to make her smile. I used to care for her. I used to make her feel special.

But now, we became total strangers with each other. We could not even stare at each others eyes. We never talk even saying simple hi's and hello's.

It is hard. But i need to accept it. But acceptance that she is no longer mine does not guarantee that I'll not gonna get hurt.

Tanggap ko, na wala na kami. Tanggap ko na hindi na ako ang nagpapangiti sa kanya. Tanggap ko na hindi na ako ang mahal niya.

Pero hindi ko maiaalis na masaktan kasi hanggang ngayon mahal ko pa rin siya. Hanggang ngayon, she is special to me.

Hanggang ngayon, I'm still holding on to that moment that she is still mine. Hanggang ngayon, siya at siya parin talaga. Kahit sabihin kong wala na.

I get my wallet, I take a look on the photograph of the both of us. It takes me back to the moments that I treasured the most.

Moments were we are happily together. A moment where I thought will last a lifetime.

A moment where I am hers and she is mine. A moment that brings happiness and satisfaction into my life.

But for now, it was all just part of the memory. A memory that I don't want to forget. A memory that keeps me waiting and hoping, that somehow someday, once again it becomes a reality.

I keep the photo and zipper my bag. I glance at their direction once more. They are going out of the gym together holding each others hand.

They look fully satisfied and happy while I felt so empty and in pain. They look so good together while i am miserable.