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PART 2.50 (b) AT FAULT

PONGGAY POV

"Tell us honestly, may relasyon ba kayo ni Maddie?"

That was the question I've heard from ate Bey. Never ko expected na darating ang ganitong sitwasyon. Kasi ito ang sitwasyon na ayaw or iniiwasan naming mangyari ni Maddie.

When we open up personally about our feelings for each other and talk about it we accept and decided that we just forget about it.

Because we both know and value our friendship, and we want to avoid complications. So we decided not to tell anyone and just hide the feelings and try to forget it happened.

But as months gone by, I find it hard to just forget my feelings for her and iwasan siya. At first I thought kaibigan lang pero habang tumatagal iba na yung nararamdaman ko.

Pinigilan ko at kinalimutan na lang hanggang sa dumating yung araw na nalaman namin pareho that the feeling is mutual.

That's when we started to make iwas na lang because I am still in a relationship with Jho.

Isa pa we are so unsure about our feelings. Baka nabigla lang kami or nasanay sa presensiya nang isa't isa.

But when we started to get rid of each other, that's when I totally realized it was not just an ordinary feelings, it was something special.

BEA: "Pongs, kayo ba ni Maddie?"

Ulit na tanong ni ate Bea, napansin niya kasi ang pananahimik ko.

PONGGAY: "No."

Sagot ko sa kanya sabay iling nang ulo ko.

JIA: "Eh ano yung nakita namin?"

Napabuntong hininga muna ako sa tanong ni ate Jia.

PONGGAY: "Wala po kaming relasyon ni Maddie. I don't know where to start. We both know na hindi pwede."

BEA: "You both know na hindi pwede? Ibig sabihin, may pag-uusap between the two of you?"

PONGGAY: "Last month, nakapag-usap kami and we both realized na we have feelings for each other. Kaya lang, hindi pwede kaya we decided na mag iwasan na lang kasi ayaw naming saktan si Jho. And we agreed that it is the right thing to do."

JIA: "And then?"

PONGGAY: "And kanina that was the first time na nakapag-usap kami after our last conversation a month ago."

BEA: "Walang alam si Jho?"

Umiling ako ulit to answer the question.

JIA: "Mahal mo ba si Jho?"

PONGGAY: "Yes po."

BEA: "Pero mas mahal mo si Maddie."

Tumahimik lang ako, hindi ko kasi alam ang isasagot.

JIA: "Hindi kaya, yung nararamdaman mo for Jho right now is you just don't want her to get hurt but you aren't actually inlove with her. It was Maddie after all."

PONGGAY: "Hindi ko po alam, naguguluhan po ako. What I know is that I'm happy when I am with Maddie more than when I am with Jho. But I don't want Jho to get hurt."

And my tears started to fall again. Kaya yumuko ako trying to hide the pain from the two of them.

Naramdaman ko na lang na niyakap ako ni ate Jia. And ate Bey kissed me at the top of my head.

BEA: "Ngayon ko lang narealized, Teamtago ka rin pala. Hahahaha."

JIA: "Hahaha... Naglalaro ka pala nang taguan nang feelings. We did not have any clue. Kasi lagi kayo nagtatalo at nagbabangayan ni Maddie. Magaling ka pala maglaro nang taguan eh. Hahaha."