PHOTOGRAPH (JIBEA)

PART 2.47 FEARS

JIA POV

Today was supposed to be the happiest moment of my life. It is my wedding day.

But the supposedly happiest day of my life has become a day of grim and disaster.

I was supposed to be embracing the person I love by now but that's not what's happening instead I am embracing myself with much anger and fear.

Fear of what is going on with Bea right now. Fear that she might not be able to survived the bullet. Fear that I am not gonna see her again. Fear that I will no longer feel her embrace anymore.

Anger for the person who is here beside me who have caused all these troubles and disaster. Anger for Miguel who have hurt the person I love the most.

I wanted to hurt him so badly for hurting her. All I am feeling for him now is hatred. And I will never forgive him for what he did.

I could not stop my body from trembling uncontrollably because of anger and fear. Nanginginig ang aking buong katawan at naninikip ang dibdib ko.

All I wanted right now is to see Bea and be there beside her because she needs me. All I wanted is to see her and make sure that she is in good condition.

I wanted to see her badly so I keep on calling her name.

JIA: "Bea...Bea...Bea..."

I don't know for how many times I have been calling for her name. Hindi ako tumigil sa pag-iyak at pagtawag nang pangalan niya. Kahit halos hindi ko na marinig ang sarili kong boses.

I closed my eyes and cried my heart out. I keep on crying as I buries my face on my hands and knees.

Hanggang sa maramdaman kong may gumagalaw nang balikat ko at humahawak sa pisngi ko.

And as I open my eyes, I saw the face of the person I have been longing to see. She embraced me in her arms and hugs me tight.

BEA: "Hey it's ok babe. It's ok. I'm just here."

But I just keep on crying while I am hugging her tight. She is caressing my back up to my shoulder.

BEA: "It's just a dream. It's fine. I'm here already."

She kiss me in the forehead while saying those words to calm me.

BEA POV

I woke at the middle of the night because I heard someone is screaming and crying at the same time.

At first parang may umuungol lang yung narinig ko sa loob nang room hanggang sa narinig kong may humihikbi na at binabanggit ang pangalan ko.

And I become worried because it was Jia who keeps on calling my name over and over again.

JIA: "Bea...Bea...Bea..."

Kaya bigla akong napabalikwas nang bed at mabilis na pumunta sa higaan ni Jia.

When I sit in the bed beside her, she was crying while calling my name and at the same time she was trembling.

I keep on tagging her shoulder to wake her up pero hindi parin siya magising. She just keeps on crying and never stops calling my name.

Jia is having a nightmare. Kaya I tapped her face and shoulder a bit hard para mas magising siya.

After so many tries biglang nagmulat ang mga mata niya. Tapos, bigla siya napabalikwas at napaupo sa higaan niya.

Then, yumakap siya sa akin nang sobrang higpit. Kaya niyakap ko agad siya kasi hindi pa rin siya tumigil sa pag-iyak at sobrang nanginginig siya.

She looks so stressed and afraid that I have never seen before. She is sweating and trembling at the same time.