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PART 2.5 I'M SORRY

BEA POV

Nagising ako, when I take a look on my side, Jia was there. At first akala ko nanaginip lang ako kaya pinikit ko  ang mga mata ko and then, I take a look at her once more.

It was not a dream. It was for real. Then, thoughts cross my mind, I remember everything that brought JIA here beside me.

I was sleeping on her shoulder. My heart beats so fast. I feel so overjoyed kasi ang tagal ko tong hinintay. For her to be right here beside me.

So I take the opportunity. Lulubos lubusin ko na to. Kaya tumagilid ako facing her at yumakap sa kanyang waist.

BEA: "Gosh Jia, I missed you so much. What will I do para bumalik ka na sa akin. I would do anything and everything for you stay her beside me."

BEA: "Alam kong nasaktan kita ng husto, pero gusto kong bumawi. Just give me one more chance. How I wish it is possible."

Then my tears started to fall. Hindi ko napigilan. I missed her so much that it hurts a lot. Kasi reality strikes kahit katabi ko siya she is no longer mine.

Then, naramdaman kong gumalaw siya. She takes a look at me at naalarma siya bigla ng makita ako.

JIA: "Why are you crying? Kumikirot na naman ba ang ulo mo? Saan banda?"

May pag-aalala at sunod sunod niyang tanong. Pero umiling lang ako. Wala kasing gustong lumabas sa bibig ko eh. Gusto ko lang siyang yakapin.

"Hindi kumikirot ang ulo ko, yung puso ko ang kumikirot." (Sabi yan ng malandi kong utak).

Then, inangat niya yung kamay niya at nilagay sa noo at leeg ko.

JIA: "Mukhang bumaba na yung lagnat mo."

BEA: "I missed you."

Hindi ko na napigilan eh. Bigla siyang napatingin sa akin. Hindi niya inaasahan yung sinabi ko, ako din naman eh.

BEA: "I missed you and I still love you."

Wala na. Bahala na si Batman. Hindi ko na kayang pigilan pa eh.

JIA: "Ikukuha lang kita ng pagkain para makainom ka pa ng gamot."

Pag-iwas niya at pag-bago ng usapan. Then akma siyang tatayo. But I hug her tighter, kaya wala siyang choice.

BEA: "Mahal pa rin kita, Jia."

JIA: "Mahal? Anong alam mo sa salitang yun?"

Then, biglang tumulo ang luha niya. She is hurting, that I am sure. So I hug her tighter.

JIA: "After what you did sasabihin mong mahal mo ako? Sinong niloko mo?"

Galit niyang sabi in between her sobs. I felt so bad right now. The last thing that I wanted is to see her cry because of me.

BEA: "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for hurting you this much because I was so stupid back then. I'm sorry that I messed up so badly that it caused us to be like this. How I wish I could turn back time to that moment and make things right. How I wish it was all just a bad dream, and when I wake up "tayo" pa din."

JIA: "It was too late. The damage has been done. Ano ba naging kasalanan ko sayo why did you do it?"

BEA: "I swear babe, I did not intend to hurt you that night. I know I was wrong and I made a big mistake. But believe me, hindi ko sinasadyang saktan ka."

We are both crying right now. I was hurting and she is too. We are both lying next to each other and just let our heart feel the moment.

Then, I started to talk and tell her everything that had happened that night.