If Our Love Is Wrong

Fifteen

Beatriz

"Isabel, can you please put down your phone for awhile? Ubusin mo muna food mo so we can still roam around." Mom complained.

I turned off my phone and put it inside my sling bag.

"Sorry Mom." Pinagpatuloy ko na ulit yung pagkain.

But when I felt my phone vibrated, kinuha ko ulit agad yon. But I was disappointed na notification lang pala sa instagram. Akala ko kasi nagreply na si Jho sa message ko.

I hate being away! I hate the timezone difference! Hindi ko kasi nakakausap si Jho ng maayos kasi kapag umaga dito gabi naman dun 😤

It's only been a week na nandito kami sa San Francisco but I miss her already. Alam ko naman na I was super really looking forward for this vacation kasi first time ko dito. But after 3 days I started missing Jho so badly especially na hindi kami nakakapagcommunicate ng maayos dahil sa different time zones.

Kanina nga parang hindi ko masyadong naenjoy panoorin yung first live NBA game na napuntahan ko because Jho chatted me na may trangkaso daw sya. Nahawaan daw yata sya ni Janel. Sa sobrang pag aalala ko ni hindi na ako masyadong nakapagfocus sa panonood.

"Isabel naman ang tigas ng ulo mo." Sermon ni mama kaya tinago ko agad ang phone ko and finish my food.

After eating me and Kuya roamed around with my cousins while our parents did their own.

I was busy on my phone again when Kuya suddenly grabbed my phone.

"Hey! Kuya naman!" Sabi ko.

Binigay din naman nya agad sa akin yung phone ko at yung icecream na binili nila.

"We didn't come in SanFo Beatriz para sayangin mo yang oras mo sa kakatext." Kuya said.

He's right naman. But I just can't help my self lalo na ngayon na may sakit si Jho and I am not there.

"I'm just checking on Jho. She's sick and I'm worried kuya." Sagot ko while busy on my phone.

Hindi sya umimik kaya tumingin ako sa kanya. He's looking at me na parang pinag aaralan nya ako kaya I creased my forehead.

"What?" pagtataka ko.

"Nothing." But he's still looking at me that way.

"What kuya?" Pangugulit ko.

Ang weird ng mga tinginan nya eh.

"Easy lang Beatriz. Easy lang." He said at naglakad na.

Huh?

Ang weird talaga non kahit kaylan.

Pinilit ko na lang muna wag masyadong mag alala tonight and just enjoy my time with my cousins. But when we decided to go see the Golden Bridge si Jho na naman yung naalala ko.

I'm sure she would love to see this view too. I can even imagine her taking picture of the bridge kaya napangiti ako. Tama nga sila, mas maganda tingnan ang Golden Bridge kapag gabi. Mas naappreciate ko compare nung first punta namin dito 2 days ago. Tanghali kasi that time.

I took a deep breathe.

I wish you're seeing this with me Jho.

Days passed and I am enjoying San Francisco so much but I am also looking forward to go back to the Philippines. I admit it, I am missing Jho so badly already. First time ko sya mamiss ng ganto katindi. Nakakalungkot din kasi I didn't get to spend Christmas and New Year with her. Pero ok lang naman kasi masaya din naman yung naging celebration namin dito sa America though mas masaya sana kung nakasama ko si Jho.