If Our Love Is Wrong

Thirty One

Beatriz

I kissed Jho.

I fucking kissed Jho!

Nagfullysink in lang yon sakin after I released from our kiss that lasted for only a couple of seconds. I know I was the one who made the move pero feeling ko hindi ako makahinga ng maayos.

Jho was just looking directly at me and it's obvious that she is still shocked from what I did.

Shit. Parang my heart will going to explode any second. Parang I want to apologize for kissing her unexpectedly but really, do I have to apologize for doing such thing out of love?

Kahit sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko and kahit I feel like nakalutang ako because it seems like I can't feel myself, I gave her a very genuine smile na kusang lumabas sa bibig ko. And then I kissed her forehead.

"I love you Jho." I mumbled between my small kisses on her forehead.

I love this girl so much. Hindi ko alam kung anong pinakain niya sakin or what but hulog na hulog ako sa kanya and I am willing to do everything for her. Everything.

I never thought I am capable to love this hard.

This time, Jho smiled but she didn't say anything. Instead, she wrapped her arms around my waist and hugged me tight.

And we ended the night just hugging each other beside the ocean like we're inside our own little bubble we built for only the two of us. Away from reality.

Kahit binalot kami ng silence the whole time pero it was a comfortable kind of silence.

When morning came, I woke up at dinatnan si Jho na nag aayos na ng gamit namin. Napangiti ako kasi pati gamit ko siya na din ang nag aayos. Typical Jhoana Maraguinot everyone.

I looked around the room at wala na sila Jaja at tita Lovel sa bed nila next to me and Jho's bed kaya I came out of bed at agad lumapit sa kanya. I hugged her from behind. Medyo nagulat pa siya kasi hindi niya alam na gising na pala ako.

"Ginulat mo ako!" bira niya kaya natawa ako.

"Goodmorning."

"Goodmorning din beh." Pinagpatuloy na niya ulit ang pag liligpit ng gamit ko. "Bilisan mo kumilos aalis na tayo maya maya."

As much as we want to stay pa kasi until tomorrow pa naman yung outing kaso we need to go back na sa dorm today because magstart na ulit ang training ng ALE bukas.

"Yes po kumander." I answered and then I kissed her on her cheeks at napangiti ako bigla. Naalala ko kasi yung kagabi.

Nobody between us mentioned about the kiss until now. Parang it's something that we want to keep to ourselves na lang.

Ganon ba talaga kapag first time magkiss?

Wala naman kasi akong alam sa mga gantong bagay. That was my first kiss eh 😕

Biglang lumingon sakin si Jho at tinitigan ako ng pagtataka.

"Anyare sayo?" tanong niya.

"What?" nakangiti kong tanong.

"Para kang ewan Bea. Anong nginingiti mo diyan?"

Nagkibit balikat ako. "Nothing." I said at mas lalong yumakap ulit ako sa kanya from behind. Mas mahigpit.

"Beatriz diba sabi ko kumilos kana---"

"Ate---"

Parehas kaming napalingon sa pinto ng biglang dumating si Jaja.