If Our Love Is Wrong

Eight

Beatriz

I tried my best to look like I'm listening to Millicent. She is talking something about puppys... or kittens? I'm not really sure. My mind is too occupied with something to even listen.

I just couldn't believe that Jho remembered what happened that night. Akala ko kasi hindi niya maaalala because she was drunk. But I guess I was wrong.

I already forgot about it. Or at least I tried. Pero ngayong alam kong naaalala niya, everything that happened that night seems to haunt me again.

At wala na naman akong idea kung paano ko kakalimutan ang lahat.

"Bei?"

Medyo nagulat ako ng banggitin ni Millie ang pangalan ko.

"Yes?"

Sumimangot siya. "You're not even listening."

I scratched my nape. "Sorry. What was that again?"

"Never mind." Umiiling niyang sagot tsaka sumubo ng pagkain.

Medyo nilapit ko ang mukha ko sa kanya. "I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to make you feel like I'm not paying attention. Sorry."

She looked at me then she took a deep breathe. "Is there something bothering you?"

Napaiwas ako ng tingin. "N-nothing."

Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko na nakapatong sa lamesa. "You can always tell me Bea." Pinisil niya comfortly ang kamay ko. "You may think I'm not aware, but you're always spacing out these past few days. What is it?"

Should I tell her?

Sa totoo lang, nakokonsensya ako sa kanya. Pero hindi ko naman din magawang aminin sa kanya yung nangyari. I will hurt her... badly. At gustong gusto ko na rin talaga makalimutan yon. At alam ko ganon din ang gusto ni Jho.

Umiling ako then I tried to smile. "It's nothing. Don't worry about me."

She seems not convince pero she drop the subject already. "Do you want me to order us some desserts? What do you want?" she asked. Obviously trying her best to cheer me up kahit hindi niya alam ang reason behind my reverie. And this is what I appreciate most about her.

Hinawakan ko pabalik yung kamay niya. "Let me order for us instead. What do you want?"

She rolled her eyes. "Okay I tried... and failed again. Whatever I do you won't really let me pay for our food."

Natawa ako sa sinabi niya. "So stop trying because I wont ever let you pay. I got this."

"Too generous."

Ngumiti ako ng malawak. "It's because I'm the bomb dot com."

I called the waiter for the their list of desserts. Then I let Millie decide on what to order.

"You choose." I said, passing her the list.

Agad naman niyang kinuha yon na parang batang sabik na sabik sa sweets. She loves desserts so much sometimes she's having too much sugar for a day. Pero it's what makes her happy eh.

She started scanning the menu, obviously having a hard time on what dessert to choose from. Pinanood ko lang siya habang tinatapos ko yung food ko.

"I think I'll go for s'mores tonight. How does that sound?" she finally said after a couple of minutes.

"That sounds good." I said, approving. "Actually, just choose whatever you like. You know I eat everything naman."

After niya makapagdecide, kaunting hintay lang at dumating na yung inorder naming s'mores. Tuwang tuwa siya when it came because matagal na raw ng huli siyang kumain ng s'mores.