If Our Love Is Wrong

Nineteen

Beatriz

Time flies when you're having fun.

Season 78 ended way too fast. It was such a big heartbreak for the whole team because we didn't get to bring back the championship to Ateneo this year. It was such a good fight naman but I guess it's really DLSU's year. I just couldn't help my self to be sad because we really want that championship for our graduating seniors, especially kay Ate Ly na last playing year na pa naman nya tapos we didn't get to give her the best exit she deserves.

But all in all, I enjoyed the whole season though. I am always inspired every game eh. How can't I if I have someone like Jho with me every game diba. Tapos almost everyday magkasama pa kami sa trainings.

I think mas lumalim na nga yata yung feelings ko sa kanya eh. Hindi ko alam kung nahahalata na ba nya ako because sometimes I just couldn't control myself. Para bang there are times na I just don't care anymore kung mahalata nya basta I want her to feel my love.

Hindi ko alam kung kaylan ko pa kakayanin na itago etong nararamdaman ko. It's getting hard each day especially na araw araw kami magkasama. Buti na lang I have control over myself. Kasi kung wala, baka matagal na akong hindi nakapagpigil and baka I already confessed kay Jho.

It's not that I don't have plan to confess. I am just waiting for the right time kasi I don't want to take the risk ng biglaan. Syempre friendship namin nakasalalay dito. Kung pwede unti untiin ko muna if yun yung kaylangan para hindi sya mabigla sa aaminin ko.

"Bei, matagal ka pa ba?" Kim asked.

"Almost done. Mauna kana Kim. Dadaanan ko pa si Jho eh." I said from the shower.

"Ok. See you sa bonfire."

Then I heard the door shut.

Binilisan ko na magshower and I immediately went out to put clothes on. It's Ateneo's Bonfire tonight and iniwan na nga ako ni Kim because I'm so mabagal.

After I wore my casual dress, sinuklay ko lang ang hair ko and I went out of my dorm room. Kim said I should put on a little bit of make up for tonight kaya she left her make up pouch on my bed. But I don't even have idea how to put foundation no. Tsaka I am not comfortable wearing make up and besides, gabi naman kaya ok lang 😕

I went to Jho's room almost running. Malapit na kasi magstart ang bonfire.

I immediately texted her that I'm already outside pagdating ko sa harap ng room nila ni Gizelle.

After like 5 seconds binuksan nya yung door.

She's already nakaayos.

"Lets go?" I said while smilling. She's so beautiful eh kahit ang simple lang.

She bit her lower lip at nag iwas sya ng tingin sakin.

"Uhm beh... mauna kana lang siguro."

"Huh? Why? Are you not done yet? You can take your time I can wait naman."

"Kasi beh ano... uhm... basta mauna kana. Susunod na lang ako dun."

I looked at her confusingly. Pero naisip ko baka hindi pa sya tapos mag ayos at baka ayaw nya ako maghintay kaya I nodded kahit labag sa kalooban ko.

"Oh ok."

Naglakad na ako papunta sa parking and I immediately drove to the venue of the Bonfire. Bago ako lumabas ng car ko I texted Jho muna. Nag aalala kasi ako eh baka wala syang kasabay pumunta at walang maghahatid sa kanya papunta dito because she doesn't have a car. Medyo malayo layo pa naman ang Eliazo. Sana kasi sumabay na sya sakin.