If Our Love Is Wrong

Twenty One

Beatriz

The loud music blasting through the whole place greeted me as soon as I went inside the club. The night is just starting but the people are already partying real hard. Medyo nakakapanibago yung ganitong atmosphere. The last time I went into a club like this was sobrang tagal na talaga.

"Bea!"

I immediately saw Maki on one of the booths na kumakaway sakin at agad ko siyang nilapitan.

"Where's Cel?" I asked pagkalapit ko. I saw that she already ordered herself a beer.

"Can't go. It's just you and me for the rest of the night. Liit talaga ng circle of friends natin 'no?" natatawa niyang sabi. "Ikaw naman kasi magyayaya na lang napakabiglaan pa masyado. Ano ba'ng meron ha? You got lucky free ako tonight."

I shrugged my shoulder. "Nothing. I just want to drink. Hindi ba pwede?"

"Eh akala ko ba less alcohol muna while PSL season is ongoing?"

"Hindi naman siguro masama if I'll break the rule for one night?"

"Hindi nga masama.. but that?" Tinuro niya yung margarita na inorder ko. "Hindi yata ako sure diyan."

"What?" I innocently said.

"Nahiya naman yung beer ko diyan sa pa-margarita mo. Walang time magpademure muna Beadel?"

I just chuckled sabay inom.

"Ano ba 'to ha? Mini celebration because Foton won the game kanina? Or because POG yung isa diyan?" mapang asar niyang sabi.

Celebration? As if I feel like celebrating. I thought.

I didn't even deserve being the POG kanina. Wala naman talaga ako sa sarili ko while playing. I just scored high because of frustration at nailabas ko yun sa game. What a shame.

"Oo Bea, mahal pa rin kita. Mahal na mahal pa rin kita."

Napapikit ako ng madiin when Jho's words echoed through me again.

Our conversation at the dug out kanina is still stucked in my head. Kahit anong gawin ko hindi mawala wala sa isip ko.

"Alam mo bang... hinintay kita Bea. Pero bakit... Bakit hindi ka bumalik?"

What a ridiculous thing to say.

Hinintay niya ako? Pero hindi ako bumalik? What the fuck. Niloloko ba niya ako? How will I go back if she was the one who left? Ibang klase.

Nakakainis. Naiinis ako sa kanya.

"Woah." gulat na sabi ni Maki while eyeing my margarita nung sunod sunod ko itong ininom. "Chill lang muna Beatriz... para walang iyakan na ganap." pagbibiro niya.

Instead of laughing, napatitig lang ako sa hawak kong baso.

"Maks..."

Napatigil siya sa pag inom at napatingin sakin. "Hmm?"

"She still loves me."

"Ha?"

Tumingin ako sa kanya. "Jhoana still loves me."

Muntik siyang mabilaukan sa beer. "What?!"

Nung hindi ako sumagot, nanglaki ang mga mata niya.

"You're kidding." hindi pa rin niya makapaniwalang sabi.

Uminom ulit ako ng sunod sunod at hindi siya sinagot. And I think my silence convinced her that I am not joking at all.

Napatingin siya sa kawalan. Shockness is still evident through her face.