If Our Love Is Wrong

Eighteen

Beatriz

"I wish for more memories with you."

Fuck. I can't stop thinking about Jho's wish. Everything I do bigla na lang papasok sa isip ko yung sinabi nya kaya nga muntik pa akong hindi makatulog kagabi.

Ang dami dami nyang pwede iwish pero she freakin wish for more memories with me! With me! Yes, with me! Tell me, how can I contain myself with that? I can't help my self to think na baka meron. Baka meron din syang nararamdaman sa akin katulad ng nararamdaman ko sa kanya.

Is that even possible? I mean, why would she wish for that above everything else? Gosh. What if she liked me before I can even recognized my feelings? Oh God. What will----

"Beatriz?"

My thoughts were cut off when my Tita said my name.

"Yes po?"

"You seem so busy with your own thoughts. Kanina pa kita kinakausap." Nakangiti nyang sabi.

Dun ko lang din napansin na nakatingin na rin pala sakin sila Mom and Dad and yung iba naming relatives dito sa table. They're looking at me na para bang they're waiting for me to say something which I don't even know.

We're having a De Leon clan mini dinner gathering kasi dito sa house which our family do every other month kaya I went home today.

"Uh sorry Tita. What was that again?" I said.

"Tita was asking if you do have a boyfriend Bei." Nangingiting sabi ni Kuya Loel.

I almost choke on my food and I immediately shook my head.

"I don't have a boyfriend tita." Agad kong sagot na natatawa.

Gosh. Why do my relatives always wanna be updated with my lovelife. Lagi na lang 😑

"Until now wala pa rin Bea?" Parang nang aasar nyang sabi. "It's good to have someone as inspiration. Right Det? Or baka naman masyado kayong strict when it comes to boys dito kay Beatriz."

Natawa si Mom. "No. Actually, I am just waiting for Bea to introduce us her manliligaw."

Nanlaki yung mata ni Tita and she looked at me with wonder. Halos machoke na naman ako sa sinabi ni Mom.

"Nako Elmer. You better make sure na makakapasa sa standards si manliligaw." My other tita chimed in.

"Of course. They need to bring a resume here sa house." Dad said kaya nagtawanan ang lahat.

Oh help me God. Please vanish me right now 😑

"So, Bea..." my Grandma joined the conversation. "Gwapo ba si manliligaw?"

I rolled my eyes at them. "I don't have manliligaw po."

Baka ako po kasi yung manligaw sa kanya if ever. I badly wanna tell them.

"Wala naman palang manliligaw Det eh." Grandma said, laughing.

"Nako Ma, someone delivered a flower here sa house for her weeks ago."

Ugh Mom! Why are you doing this to me. You're suppose to save me!

Then they started exchanging their ideal guy for me which my Mom seems to be enjoying so much. Napapafacepalm na lang ako sa mga naririnig ko.

My tita said dapat daw nag eexcel sa academics. My other tita naman dapat daw athlete din at may itsura. Yung malaartista daw or malamodel ang dating para maganda daw ang lahi. Wtf 😑

Pero nag eexcel naman si Jho sa academics. Athlete din sya and may itsura. She's not the artistahin or malamodel type but she's beautiful. Very beautiful. So I think mukhang pasado naman si Jho sa relatives ko.