The Last Fall

18

CHERYL's POINT OF VIEW

"Thank you so much for watching her for me. I promise you that I won't bother you about watching her again..." I said to Tony's Mom as I started to pack up Dana's things.

"Nonsense. I love watching my grand babies. You rarely brought Caiya or Ciyle over here when they were little. You let your Mon have all the fun and memories with them." Tony's Mom said as she lightly rubbed my back.

Dana was asleep but I wasn't shocked at that. She still had a small cold.

"I just didn't know that you had the time to watch them..." I said as I turned my head and looked at her.

"I always had time, Cheryl. I have a question though...
Do you still love my son?" Tony's Mom asked me.

I stopped what I was doing and looked at her. I kinda dazed out because I didn't know if it was safe to tell the truth. The truth was yes...I do.

"Uhm....maybe we shouldn't talk about this." I said as I turned back around and finished putting Dana's things away.

"Cheryl...sit down." She then said as she touched my hands to stop me. We both turned around and sat on her bed.
"Look at me..." She then added as she touched the opposite side of my face and turned my head towards her. "It's okay to still love him..." she finally told me.

"I don't agree with that. He doesn't want me." I said as I looked down in my lap and fidgeted with my hands. "I wish that he did but he doesn't. He moved on. Plus, shouldn't you hate me right now? You know about what I did to Tony and I feel bad about it but...like I said before, I deserve to feel this way. I hurt the two people that I promised myself that I would never wanna hurt. Yet, I did it." I said as I looked up at her.

"You're not perfect. I've known you for forever, Cheryl. I know that you feel bad and regret what you did because I've never seen you this way. I know that you love him and that's why I want the two of you to try again. This time, I have a feeling that it's gonna work out." She said as she smiled and rubbed my shoulder.

"I-...I don't know. I think that it may be best this way..."

"And why do you think that?"

"Maybe because I don't wanna hurt him again?" I said a few tears started to fall down my face. "That's something that I never wanna do ever again..." I added as I sniffled and gently wiped my cheeks. "I can't even believe that I'm talking about this right now..." I said as I laughed a nervous laugh, continued to wipe my face and stood up.

"Just talk to him. I bet that he misses you...."

"I might. I'll think about it." I said as I nodded my head. "Let me go get Dana. It's kinda getting late." I added as I walked out of her bedroom.

I have so many feelings brewing inside of me about Tony. Trey isn't helping the situation either because I'm forcing myself to love him.

What am I doing with myself?

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DAYS LATER

"Gosh, you know something baby?" I said as I hugged Tony's neck from behind as he sat on the edge of the bed watching TV.