The Last Fall

What's In His Hands?

Continued from the last chapter;

CHERYL's POINT OF VIEW

Today Toni and I were gonna meet up for lunch to talk about things Shemar and I should do as we move forward in our relationship. Reading the pregnancy test the other day, I felt like it was a necessity and she did as well. Even though Toni doesn't know the results, she thinks that Shemar and I still need to do things in a much orderly fashion.

And I agree.

Everything seems like it's gotten out of our hands and we want so much from each other.

So much that we sometimes aren't thinking about the steps we should take before our needs can be met with each other.
It's hard not knowing which route to take when all you wanna do is make the other person the most happiest.

Walking towards the front door of the place where Toni and I scheduled to eat lunch, a random, yet neat man opened the door for me.

I smiled at him innocently, thanked him, and continued to walk inside.

Making my way inside, I looked around the place with hopes of finding Toni sitting down at a table already. I was only ten minutes late and I already knew that hearing her mouth about it was gonna be something wonderful...

Finally connecting eyes with her, I noticed that she was sitting at a table by the window and she a cocktail rested in front of her.

I waved at her and started making my way over towards the table.

"Gah-damn. Are you always late?" She asked me as she watched me put my purse down and then take a seat.

"No, no, no...don't come for me. This is my first time being late, aight? Things happen," I told her as I got comfortable in my seat and let out a sigh of relief.

"Uhm hm. Anyways, I'm just happy you're here. Are you feeling better?" She asked me as she sipped on her drink.

"Yeah, I am. I took the test too..." I told her as I stared into her eyes. Her eyes gently widened and she stopped drinking her drink.

"Oh, yea! What did it say?" She asked as she moved her head in closer and waited for my answer.

"Well....it said...negative," I told her.

"Oh fuck. Really?"

"Yes, really. You were wrong. I'm not pregnant. Apart of me is sad and happy about that. I don't know why..."

"Maybe you just weren't ready for that fourth baby?" Toni asked me as she shrugged her shoulders.

"Maybe...then again, I do wanna give Shemar what he wants one day. You already know how he is..."

"Yeah, I do, Peps. That man loves the hell out of you and that's a fact. Sometimes it's scary how much he loves you too but I guess he's just a little protective over you," She told me as she scanned the room for a moment.

"Yeah, he is. He's always been that way. Ever since we were kids, my mom and his mom always ordered him to watch over me. It's like...he was my brother at one point, you know? Yet, I would rather say a really, really close best friend. In high school, I saw that he liked me and a little small piece of me liked him too. It's interesting whenever I look back and see how much our relationship has evolved over time. I don't know but...is it bad that I'm kinda happy that it was negative?" I asked Toni as I played with my hands in my lap.