The Last Fall

Caiya's Mental Trials

One statement before we begin; This has gotta be my MOST fawked up book out of them all due to many obvious events BUT 😂😂😂....keep reading.

CAIYA's POINT OF VIEW

"You did great." Justin said as him and I both put our clothes back on.

"What do I say to that? I barely even knew what I was doing..." I said as I continued looking down.

"I mean, but you kinda knew. It wasn't horrible. I helped you and after your turn, I basically did all of the work."

"Listen, Justin. Nobody can know about what happened between you and I tonight." I rushed to say to him as I looked up at him. He stared at me with a confused facial expression.

"Okay, Caiya. I mean...why would I tell?" He asked as he put his hands out.

"I don't know..." I responded.

"I'm not tellin' anybody. We did this because we wanted to. It's just sex." He explained to me. "We will walk downstairs like nothing even happened. Simple." He added.

I nodded my head. "You're right." I added on to him.

"Let's get you home before your people find out you're not in bed." He then said as he zipped my dress up and opened the door. Before I could walk out, he grabbed my arm and I looked at him. "Even though we barely know each other, I do wanna get to know you more at school, Caiya. You're really cute. Seeing you sitting by yourself at lunch is...hard because you look so lonely. People are cruel, Caiya but don't let the cruel things they do change who you are. If you let them change you? They win. I saw on a wall in school that you're listed to have won at least 2 major scholarships because of your paintings." He said to me.
"Keep drawing. If not for me? At least for yourself." He added.

I nodded my head and took a deep breath.

"People change, Justin. You don't know how hard it is to be yourself when others around you are judging your talent, creating false rumors or just laughing to make you feel even more weak. I go through this every weekday. For two years straight and you expect for me not to let this shit get to me? Some days I wanna just end it all but-..."

"Don't say that." He said as he closed the door and placed his back against it.
"Don't hurt yourself." He added.

"Too late for that." I said as I looked down at my wrists and then hid my arms behind my back.

"I saw that. Why do you wanna hurt yourself?" He asked me.

"Because my life is full of shit. That's all. My parents are divorced, my Mom cheated on my dad, my Dad apparently has a new girlfriend, I was raped by the man my Mom once dated, my brother is oblivious, my friends turned their backs on me, I was lied to and I was thrown towards the side. From 17 to 18 years old...my life has been going down the damn drain." I told him. "Do you know how hard all of this stuff has been weighing down on me? Being bullied everyday and people hating me just because of who my parents are? I never thought that I would say this but I hate myself. I wish I never existed. Maybe it would be better on my parents anyways...
I know they're tired of dealing with me anyways." I said as I sat down on his bed and dropped my head.

"I can feel that their is something special about you, Caiya. Something beyond special. You have to stay strong!" He said as he squatted down in front of me.