CAI's POINT OF VIEW
After walking away from my Mom like that, I felt horrible. However, I didn't want to talk about the situation any further. Yeah, it's hard going through the same shit everyday at school but I know Moms. I know that she would instantly want to go up to my school and end every single thing. Me being a senior and a snitch who ran home to tell Mommy? I can't let that happen. Plus, my Mother is too Brooklyn- her going up there wouldn't be a pretty sight.
I've already told her too much anyways...
I hope she forgets all that I've said...While I stood in the bathroom, I looked at myself in my mirror and then looked down at my wrists. They were healing...but not for long.
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"My apologies, Ma...I just had to take a moment." I said as I sat down in my seat and avoided looking into her eyes. I knew that she was staring at me and sometimes I hated that because she knew me better than I knew myself.
She could see when I was hurting and when I was happy.
"I understand. I just...care about everything that you're going through, Cai. You're my daughter..." She said to me.
I slouched down in my chair due to embarrassment and played with the bottom of my shirt.
"You just don't know how it feels to get bullied." I told her as I kept my head low.
I was feeling all kinds of hurt and pain.
I just don't show it."And what makes you think that?" She asked me.
I was silent for a moment and continued to fidget with my shirt. I then slightly shrugged my shoulders and peeked up at her. Once our eyes met, I rushed to look down into my lap once again.
"I-...I don't know. You're not like me." I finally let out.
"Cai, little do you know? You and I are alike in many ways, baby girl. Not only do we both have multiple passions but we are also filled with so much life. Haven't you ever realized that? I see so much more of myself in you than I do your Father. And yes, if you're wondering. I do know how it feels. I've had many forms of bullying believe it or not." She told me.
I then looked up at her and raised one of my eyebrows.
"Really?" I asked her as I sat up straight in my seat. "When?" I added out of curiosity as I crossed my arms on the table.
"Lets see, when I was in high school and even when I was in a play during my older years. Well, when I was in a play- it was just pettiness going on backstage but other than that. Different forms, you know?"
"How did you get through it?" I asked her as I watched her move her glass of water back and forth on the table lightly.
"Uhm..." She said as she looked at the water and took a deep breath. "Prayer?" She finally said.
"Prayer." I repeated as I too looked at her glass of water.
"Do you pray?" She asked me in a light voice.
"Yes. Every night."
"About what?" She asked me as she lightly tilted her head at me and smiled.
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The Last Fall
FanfictionThe 3rd book of the 'Falling From The Floor Series" Memories. That's all that Cheryl has and even though she wishes that she could go back and undo it all- she still failed. Now, she has to figure it all out and live through her past mistakes. That'...