The Last Fall

Let Me Apologize 💔

SHEMAR's POINT OF VIEW

As I walked towards the front of the building to find Cheryl; I couldn't help to think about what I was gonna say.

I mean, of course I'm gonna say that I apologize but then again- I meant what I said.

I placed both hands on the top of my head and continued walking down the hallway.

"This is ridiculous." I said underneath my breath as I bit my bottom lip due to nervousness and ambition all at once.

As I gently turned the corner, I found her standing there looking out the clear doors; waiting.

I took my hands off of my head and placed my back against the wall towards the right of me. I just looked at her and how she had her arms folded across her chest.

I placed my hands into my pockets and crossed one foot over the other.

"I remember the last day of summer we were together before you had to be shipped off college. Some would say that it was a simply walk in the park but I saw that day as something more than simple. I had to let my best friend go...and-...I didn't know when I would see her again. My heart weighed heavy as hell that day. I remember hugging you for almost 10 minutes because I didn't know how to let you go. I didn't want to." I said as I nodded my head and looked over at her. She continued staring out the doors. I sighed but continued. "You told me something that day. Something that I still haven't forgotten. You said; "I'll always come back to you no matter what the circumstances. Whether we are upset with each other, have done something cruel...no matter what, I'll always find my way back into your arms, best friend" and then you gently whispered into my ear, "I love you more than anything in this entire world." I said as I smiled to myself and looked down at my shoes.

Next, I looked over towards her and saw how she dropped her head.

"Then, I remember you walking away from me. I told you, "Just keep going, baby girl. Don't look back at me. Get in the car, drive off with your people and don't look back at me" and you simply nodded your head at me. I smiled at you, you smiled at me and that's when you placed a kiss upon my lips so innocently. That innocent kiss didn't mean anything to you but it meant the entire world to me. I stood there in awe. Not just because of your beauty nor the pure heart you held but because of simply having you as my best friend. However, after that kiss, I had to let you go. I held your hand but you started walking away from me. Once our hands broke, you continued walking and you kept walking and kept walking and kept walking. There I stood with anticipation. Hoping that you would look back at me and reassure me that everything will be okay. I wanted you to do it so badly. I wanted you to at least say fuck what I said about never looking back and LOOK back at me! I watched you and continued watching you walk. Right when you opened the door, you paused and that's when my heart dropped. I was like...she's gonna do it. She's gonna look back or she's either gonna run into my arms and make me the happiest. However, I was wrong. You didn't have to look back because if you remember, I ran to you. I turned you around, picked you up and hugged you so tightly. Your parents looked at us as if we were crazy but all I could remember was you crying into my neck. You didn't wanna let me go neither and that's the day when I knew that my love for you was real. I knew that it wasn't going anywhere either. I couldn't let you go then but I had to. It's hard letting somebody go that you love more than you love your own self." I explained to her as I kept my head down. I just stood there silently and reminisced everything that happened that day.