The Last Fall

W A R: Part Three

SHEMAR's POINT OF VIEW

"Maybe just keep some ice on it, wrap it every four hours and if you're still in some pain, take a pain reliever. How did they even happen? A fight?" The doctor asked me.

I sat there and just shook my head no.
I didn't look up at him but instead; I stared down at my hand that I damn near broke.

"He uhm...punched the floor about four times. He's goin' through a lot right now." Toni spoke up for me.

She brought me here after I cried on Cheryl's floor for about thirty minutes.

That's how I knew that I lost her because she didn't even come back after hearing me have a break down.

"Ah. I see. Anger issues?" The doctor then asked.

I looked up at him as if he was crazy.

"Do I look like I got anger issues to you? Since you know so much shit," I said to him sternly.

The doctor put his hands up in the air to show that he's sorry and Toni rubbed my shoulder signaling for me to calm down.

"Excuse him, please." Toni then told him.

"Toni, I'm ready to go home. I didn't even wanna come here anyways..." I told her.

The doctor slipped out of the room to go grab some papers for me to sign.

"Shemar, your hand was bleeding and you didn't wanna come to the hospital? I thought you broke it or something!"

"I could careless about my hand right now. I have other shit to do, aight? I lost Cheryl, I missed my plane yesterday because I couldn't leave knowing that Cheryl was upset with me. Now, I'm gonna miss out of thousands of dollars because I didn't show up for filming. And yeah, I'll fuckin' admit that my damn hand hurts but I couldn't help but to hit the floor."

"You didn't lose Cheryl, Shemar." Toni then told me as she stood in front of me. "You didn't."

"You saw how she walked away from me didn't you?"

"Yeah but that's only because she's embarrassed and hurt right now. She didn't think that you would ever do something like this to her. I mean, I even saw the video and the questions you asked her were very sensitive ones. As a woman, I'm sure that if I were her, I wouldn't want to world to know what's said or done in the bedroom with my man either. That's a sacred time." She exploration to me.

I nodded my head.

"I didn't know it was gonna get this far. I just wanted to tell Tony and show him that I'm winning so far and that he's losing."

"Shemar, listen to yourself. You sound like a guy in college or something. Is it really about who wins or loses? You had her and that's what all should've mattered. She's yours and she was in your bed," she told me as she pointed at my chest. "You were winning already. As a man, you should've have to worry about proving anything to another man. You better make this right, Shemar. You're her best friend and she never would've thought that you would do something so shallow. You're supposed to protect her..."

"I've been trying! I just can't-....Toni, you don't understand. I wanted her before Tony even married her. She knew that too but she said I do anyways. Then, she had three babies by him. Those should've been my babies and that should've been our wedding. I can never win. Dana was supposed to be mines too how many times her and I fucked during that time. I don't see how she's not. Tony gets her for one night and he just-...gets her pregnant. Do you not see how badly this shit hurts? When you want somebody but you can't have them?" I asked her.