The Last Fall

Cai's Misery Pt. 3

CAI's POINT OF VIEW
The next morning;

I finished straightening my hair in my bathroom mirror and then rushed to unplug the flatiron.
Next, I fixed my hair in the mirror a little bit and made sure that it was straight enough.

Good enough.
I look like my Mother when she was in her younger years- it's crazy sometimes.

Sometimes its nice to be her little twin and other times, it's a curse. You know why...

I honestly didn't want to go to school but maybe I should. I can't miss too many days anyways.

After I put my things away in the bathroom, I walked into my room, grabbed my backpack and started to make my way downstairs.

I sighed as I reached the bottom of the staircase because I knew that Ma would bring tonight up.

Once I reached the kitchen, she already had my blueberry pancakes and bacon ready for me to eat before we left.

"Hi..." I said as I lightly smiled and then sat down on the stood.

"Good morning." She said as she looked at me.
"So, your Father will be coming tonight. First, he has to drop your siblings off at his Moms and then he will be over here." She told me.

I nodded my head and looked down at my pancakes.

"Okay." I said as I grabbed the syrup and started pouring it around my pancakes without letting it touch the surface of the pancakes at all.

"I hope that yesterday when I kind of yelled my voice that- you understood why I did it in the first place." She said as she watched me bite a piece of my bacon. I looked up at her.

"Yeah. I get it. I still don't see why we have to tell him. There's no need. I didn't even do anything." I said in a slightly sassy tone.

"...Cai. Your tone and yes, you did do something. It takes two people...or were there more people involved?" She asked me.

I looked at her with a shocked facial expression.

She literally thinks that I had sex with more than more per-...

I stood up out of the stool and grabbed my backpack.

"Cai, where are you going?" She asked me in a rush.

Next, I turned away from her and I started walking away. "I'll be in the car."

"Caiya Denise Riley-Grant..." I then heard her say in an upset tone.

"What?! What, Ma? I had sex! Yes, is that what you want me to admit. Maybe-...." I said as I started tearing up. "Maybe, it wouldn't have happened if you were there!" I slightly yelled as I then rushed to leave out of the house.

Once I got into the car- I sat in the passenger seat and the tears started coming down harder.

She doesn't know how it feels to wake up everyday and having to deal with reliving that moment in my head over and over.

She doesn't know how it feels to still feel like his scent is on me. I can't even scrub my body enough times in the shower because I feel like it's still there. His sweat and his-...disgusting ass cologne is still on my body.