Now all those feelings, those yesterday's feelings will all be lost in time
But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind["Yesterday's Feelings" The Used]
Kurt stared at me with such compassion as I cried. Not wanting to cause a scene in the restaurant, we'd left and walked to a secluded area under a bridge. Kurt admitted that he liked to come here alone to think, and I got the feeling that he rarely shared this with anyone. I would have found it serene had I not been feeling so broken beyond repair. But now that we were here, I felt like it was okay to let all my feelings flow out of me.
So far, I had only told Kurt about my mother leaving. Revisiting the past that I had tried to suppress for so long made me feel like I'd stabbed a knife right through my chest. Kurt and I were sitting side by side on the ground. I had dissolved from coherent words to quiet sobs, curling my body up as tightly as I could. Kurt reached out his hand as though he was going to put his arm around me to comfort me, but he hesitated a moment and pulled back. Instead he pulled out his cigarettes and offered me one, which I gratefully accepted.
I slowed my crying as I lit the cigarette. I took a deep drag and regained a bit of composure. I felt my shoulders relax and realized how tense I'd been. I glanced at Kurt. There was a small smile on his lips as he watched me. His presence was so comforting that a warm sensation washed over me despite the chilly air and damp ground.
"I'm so sorry about your mom. She didn't deserve someone like you for a daughter." I didn't know that I could agree with him, but I felt a faint blush appear on my cheeks at his compliment.
"Well... thanks," I replied awkwardly, not knowing what to say. Kurt's eyes grew intense--back to that piercing blue that seemed to penetrate through every single wall I'd built up around myself for so many years. How could this man be a total stranger to me?
"There's more that's hurting you." He stated it as a fact rather than a question. "We don't have to talk about it right now." His voice was so smooth and gentle. Once again I felt that endearing sense of comfort wrap around me like a warm blanket. If there was anyone in my life right now to whom I could truly confess my feelings, it was Kurt. Even though it was so painful knowing that I had no one else anymore, Kurt's presence felt like enough to me. I was slowly starting to believe that meeting him had saved me. Even though I'd known him for less than a full day, I knew in my heart that we were going to be good friends.
"I think I need to let everything out," I confessed. "It's been a long time since I've had anyone to listen."
"I'm listening. I'll listen for as long as you need." My heart swelled with that little statement.
I described my dad's downward spiral into alcoholism. I told Kurt how I lost my popular status at school because I didn't keep up with my appearance or social skills anymore. I explained that I eventually found a new friend group at school, and that they helped me through a lot.
"Your friends from school sound a lot like my friends, actually," Kurt said. "You know-- the ones that are probably all still passed out from partying too hard last night." He flashed a beautiful full smile at me this time, and even though I was hurting so badly, I couldn't help but smile back. "Those popular kids are dicks anyway. Everyone's so goddamned fake. They're just a bunch of pathetic clones of one another who have no individuality whatsoever."
"That's so true. Those kids dropped me in an instant the second I didn't look the part anymore. But I'm so glad they did, because I never had truly great friends until I got to know Lisa and Danny. They were like my family."
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The Sun is Gone
FanfictionA string of tough events leaves Elizabeth with nothing. When Kurt finds her, all that changes. But soon life 's challenges start getting in the way. Still, they always seem to keep finding their way back to one another. Between distance, pride, dru...