Because of Joe

Chapter 32

Chapter 32

The girl came over to me and sat on the chair beside the window. She looks at me and shakes her head. "You look sad." Her accent was definitely not French but something more up north.

"I'm just having some tough decisions right now." I said. She finished off her cigarette.

"Trust me I'm having the worst." She takes another sip of wine from the bottle "Tell me. Maybe I can help." I was hesitant at first but then I told her anyway because I don't know what to do. Sebastian must be roaming the streets right now tryin to contain his anger. After I was done telling her she offers me te bottle of wine.

"It's alright." I waved it away.

"No I think you need something to clear your mind for just tonight." She says. I want to rest and I know this problem was going to keep me up. I take the bottle and gulped down some wine. She was very kind though she understood because she was heartbroken before. Many times before. Tonight she just found out her boyfriend cheated in her. "Why does it have to be me all the time?" She cries.

"It's alright." I rubbed her shoulder. I wish I had my phone right now so I could call Ilani and ask her to cheer us up. It's all the way upstairs in the room. I didn't want to leave.

"It's so easy for you. Two guys who love you." She blows her nose. I take another long gulp of wine. She's such a pretty girl I don't understand how guys can do such things to her. She looked so gentle and innocent.

"It's not that easy." I murmured and she takes another cigarette out and lights it. She offers me one but I put it down. Drinking this wine is my limit that's it.

"Men..." She scoffs and takes a long drag. I drained the bottle and she laughs. "Your not used to drink this much are you?" I nod and I suddenly felt dizzy. There was two sets of everything.

"I better go." I said. Im lucky I'm already at the hotel. My head was throbbing and I swayed my way for the elevator.

"Bye I hope you solve your problem." She says after me. I leaned on the elevator as it went up. God I felt sick. Our flight was early tomorrow. I stumbled out of the elevator and I made my way to the room. Damn it. I didn't have my key. I made another sickening ride downstairs to the lobby and I asked for a spare. I'm never doing this again. As I walked into the room I felt really sick. I ran into the bathroom and threw up in the toilet. That took a while and I cleaned myself up. I realized Sebastian wasn't back yet and I didn't know if I should wait for him to come back. Doing that would make me confused again because he'd make me change my mind. I fall on the bed.

He was asking me to marry him. My god why did you throw me off? That ring must have cost him so much and its my fault he doesn't know what to do with it. I cried on the pillow and i have created such a big snowball and now I face consequences. At least I got it over with. I can go back to Joe.

The guilt comes rushing back. I punch the bed frustrated. My head was pounding and all I can think about is Sebastian repeating the same words again and again. "I did everything for you. I did everything for you." I opened my eyes still I was seeing double. Joe kept on telling me in my head that I did the right thing and we could be together again. Everything hurts on my body.

* * *

I heard the sound of the door opening and closing. Then I heard keys. Sebastian he finally came back. It was almost 2. My head was throbbing badly and my throat was dry. The bedroom door opened and Sebastian looked at me. "Your awake." His voice slurred. He's been drinking too. We were driven to that point. He walks in and goes to the dressing table to remove his watch and he throws his keys down. I sat up and the room was spinning. He emptied his pockets his wallet, phone, and the box with the engagement ring. He opens it and closed it before dropping it down on the table.

"I didn't know where you were." I whispered.

"Really? I thought for now on you cared only for Joe because you don't want to be with me." His voice was deadly low.

"I was worried." I said. He cursed loudly in Italian. I jumped and understood what he said. My hands were shaking as I took a pillow to hug.

"Worried? Why don't you go ask Joe if he's okay." He walks around to be near me on the bed. "I'm sure he'd love to hear your voice." He starts to undo the buttons of his shirt.

"Your confusing me." I whispered. He takes of his shirt and throws it aside. I trembled and he grabs the pillow out of my hold.

"How?" His voice calm but I knew he was raging deep inside.

"I don't know what to do. I love you but I love Joe." I looked up at him.

"That's bullshit." His voice was louder this time. I flinched and he leans down so we can be in the same eye level. "You never loved me didn't you?" He asked.

"I do Sebastian. I do but Joe he wrote this apology letter to me saying he was sorry. I want to forgive him because it sounded so sincere." I said and my head throbbed again. I couldn't take the pain.

"But I want you to be mine anyway because I love you." He says before he get on top of me.

"Sebastian please stop." I said pushing his shoulders but he pinned my wrist down.

"What do you want Anne? I'll get you anything you want." He starts to kiss my neck and I kick but his legs wrapped around mine to trap them. "Joe might be some celebrity and with just one snap of his fingers it's there but I work hard for the things I give you."

"Your hurting me." I whimpered.

"Hurting you? I'm here to make you feel good." He kissed me and I tasted the liquor on his lips. "You've been drinking wine." He smirked. Planting kisses on my jawline.

"Can't we just talk through this?" I said and he let's go of my wrist to unbutton his jeans. My hand was free for a few seconds but it didn't last and then he grabbed it again pinning it close to my head.

"Talk to me then." He says.

"Sebastian please I just want to tell you that it was hard making this decision because I loved you too. It's just that I've loved Joe longer." I said I was bracing myself.

"Stop telling me you love." He says. "I will know you love me when you choose me instead." I squirmed underneath him and he holds me still. I had that headache again. He eases into me and I moaned. His breathing was steady and he kept himself in control. He moves his hand down my arm to my hips. "I let go of your hands. You feel better?" He whispers. I was being hypnotized by his voice and his hands. Deeper and deeper he covers my mouth before I make I sound. "I don't understand what you see in him." His lips moved on my neck. Before I knew it i couldn't keep my eyes open anymore.

* * *

I was laying on my side facing the door and I felt a soft moving feeling on my stomach. I looked down and I saw Sebastian's fingers lifting my shirt slowly. I gasped and sprang up from the bed. "You...oh my god Sebastian." I was dressed in his black tshirt and my underwear.

"What is it?." He says and I scramble out of be looking at the time. It was almost 5am. We needed to get to the airport at 6.

"Leave me alone. I'm hurrying before we miss our plane." I said throwing the blanket at him. He catches it and puts it on the bed. Sebastian crawls over to my side his hair all over the place. He takes my hand. I slapped him and he was surprise.

"Anne I'm sorry. I was drunk you were drunk." He says. I slapped him again and again. He grabbed both my arm. "Stop. What I did last night is unforgivable we both didn't know what was going on." He says. Why did I have to drink? I walked away from getting my things ready. I'm going back to New York.