Because of Joe

Chapter 24

Chapter 24

I tried to listen to Sebastian as he explained the schedule for tomorrow. What Ilani told me earlier stuck to me and I tried not to open my mouth because I was scared I would blurt something out. Sebastian shows me the order the models would walk in. He held my hand and kissed the knuckles with feather light kisses. I smiled putting my attention on the list. "Anything to say?"He smiles.

"Oh um no everything looks great." I nod and he wraps an arm around me.

"Good." He says and picks up my sketchbook. "Your already designing again."

"It just keeps coming at me." I smiled taking the sketchbook back. Loose papers flew out. "God I need a new book." I laughed as we both went to pick up the papers. Sebastian holds on a picture. He hands it over and my cheeks went hot.

"You still need this?" It was a picture with Joe and I. I took the picture from Sebastian and folded it.

"I forgot this was in there." I hid my face from him and I shoved the picture out of his sight. Not a trace of anger was on his face or he was good at hiding it. "I'm going to get some snacks. Are you hungry?" I steer away from any further conversation about it.

"Yea go ahead. I still need to call in reservations." He dials something on his phone. Reservations? I went outside to my small kitchen and I hear Jojo laughing with Ilani downstairs. I barely hear them fight I was envious. I poured two glasses of lemonade and I made small bite sized sandwiches. I glanced over to the small table where Sebastian was sitting at before and my magazine article was opened. He must have been reading it again.

"I got us some things to nibble on." I smiled putting the tray on the cleared off table. Sebastian takes one of the glasses.

"Should we toast?" He has this grin. To be honest my heart flutters at that sight.

"I guess." I take my own glass.

"For my beautiful girlfriend. May she host her own fashion show with a bang." He takes my free hand.

"What are you talking about. It's also yours." I blush.

"It's not mine. Everything is yours baby. Toast." He says and we clink our glasses. He stares at me as he drinks his lemonade. "Well this is refreshing." He says. I offered him a small sandwich and he takes one. I pulled some chairs over so we could sit down. I looked at something written on a post-it. It was his handwriting saying 'Pick up at 7am'. I didn't even bother to think about it.

After a light conversation I leaned forward and kissed him. Is that supposed to make feel better? I looked at him and there was a ghost of a smile on his face. I closed my eyes and kissed him again. I don't see him. I see Joe and he's kissing me back. My eyes opened to Sebastian and his fingers touched my neck. Gently he moves down to my jaw. I closed my eyes. I imagine Joe kissing me. Go away. I don't want to see you. Eyes opened again Sebastian was kissing my neck now and it usually wasn't like this. After that one night he never really kissed me intimately again until now. I knew he was disappointed but he never complained. I kept my eyes open because I was afraid of thinking about Joe. Think about Sebastian and I try. He kisses and nibbles on a sensitive spot on my neck. I felt like I was going to fall of my chair. His eyes were closed savoring every moment because this was a rare occasion for him. I held his chin so I could go back on kissing him again. This time I closed my eyes and thought about Sebastian. I sighed. Joe was replaced by him. Sebastian smiles on my lips being delighted to hear me make a sound. He doesn't even know why. His phone started ringing and he glanced down at it. "Really? I'm sorry this is important." He picks up the phone and wanders out to the balcony. I put the dirty dish away along with glasses. My cheeks feel warm and I hear Sebastian speaking quickly in Italian on the phone. I don't know if he sounded angry or just passionate about what he's saying.