Chapter 26
"Paris? With Sebastian?" Ilani was in her pajamas blogging. I was sitting cross legged on the bed writing down the orders due to today's runway show.
"Yea my parents said yes I can go with him." I picked up my phone hoping to see if Sebastian texted.
"Wow he got his blessing."
"Please...besides he told me this was my birthday present from him." I gushed.
"Yea are going to break up with him in Paris?"
"Hell no. Are you serious?" I looked at her. There went a few beats before she sighed.
"Joe wanted me to give you something by the way." She leaves my room and it takes her a few minutes to come back. It was a small wrapped boxed. "You better start thinking about your boyfriend out there asking for forgiveness." She lets me be and I opened the box. There was a cd inside and there was writing going around the whole disc. I put it down and there was a folded letter. I took the disc out and I realized it was his handwriting with the sharpie. I wasn't sure if I should just dispose everything pretend nothing happened. My heart told me different.
'My beautiful Anne I put this playlist together for you. It's almost like an apology letter but in music because I know how much it means to you. I choose the artists that you know so well. The words they have sung are things I wish I can tell you. I'm hoping you can forgive me because I can't forgive myself. I love you dearly.'
I turned the disc everytime it started a sentence because he wrote it in a circle. My hands trembled as I put it into my laptop. I wiped my eyes from the tears. I took out the letter and opened it. It was written by hand and a few tears fell on to it. The cd started.
When I Was Your Man- Bruno Mars. It came on first and I choked with tears. I tried to keep myself cool.
'Dear Anne,
I don't know where to start my pleading on forgiving me. But I want to say that I have been so selfish and stupid for not being strong enough to resist. I didn't think about you and I hate myself for not doing so. Every morning I feel this heavy weight on my chest and when I reach over to touch the empty side of my bed I think of you. Every time I hear your name my heart longs for you and I just wanted you to say mine again because when you did I knew you were in love with me. When I heard you were with Sebastian I didn't want to believe it at first but I wanted you to be happy. That's all I want for you. I couldn't be happy because it pained me every time I saw you with him.'
I wiped my eyes and took deep breaths. The song changed to 505-Arctic Monkeys. He knew what I liked exactly. I continued my reading.
'When you told me you didn't want to see me anymore I flew to LA to give you some space. I stayed there for a while and every time I tried to remember you I see you crying. You don't know how much it hurts me to see you cry like that. I had so much to show you but you left to early and I want a second chance to do so.'
I was breaking down again. The barrier I have created to block him out has been kicked down. Jeez Joe.
The Scientist-Coldplay started.
'Anne I miss you so much and I would do everything to get you back. I just want to say sorry to you until you forgive me and love me again. I wanna start over with you and I would do everything to make you happy again.'
I had to stop reading because it was getting to hard to read. I clutched the letter to my chest putting my hand to my mouth to muffle my cries. The music droned on. All of Me-John Legend.
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Because of Joe
FanficJust one fashion show changes everything by two glances and love takes over. Joe has stolen the hearts of many but the only heart he holds on to is Anne's. The roller coaster has many ups and downs just like Anne's life. For Joe he thinks this whole...