Because of Joe

Chapter 73

Chapter 73
(Sebastian's POV)
I threw my phone against the wall and slammed my fist on the table. Anne did that on purpose I know it. She's making me jealous and it's not working because I will get her. She doesn't knows it but I will have her and she will moan for me just like how I just heard her. Just hearing her somehow aroused me too and I stood still waiting but I went to my room stuck my hand in my pants. I replayed her moans in my head and just imagined myself making her do it myself. I closed my eyes and quickly moved my hand on my manhood. Just imaging her made me reach my peak in just a few minutes. I cleaned up and because I was still frustrated I decided to smoke. I removed my hidden stash of liquor from under my bed and drank straight out of the bottle. I promised Anne I would quit my addictions but I can't when she's doing things to make me angry. "Why do you do this to me?" I sit in my balcony watching the smoke. Another long swig from the bottle and a drag from my cigarette. I wanna die but how can Anne fall in love with me again when I'm dead. Screw everything and especially that bastard Joe. "Fuck you!" I screamed. I didn't care about anyone coming out and telling me to shut up and I drank more out of my bottle. I watched the smoke and started to cry in my hands. I'm so pathetic and I hate it. Throwing the glass down on the balcony railing it scattered all over the place. I love someone that doesn't love me back. Why can't I stop? I wiped my nose on my sleeves and stood up to return back to find more liquor to drown myself in. As I went through my fridge I spot a few bottles at the back that I have hidden. Bringing them all into my workroom and pushing my mannequins aside I sat on the floor my back against the wall. Around me the mess I have made earlier this month since I have a runway show to attend to in two week was giving me more anxiety. One by one I finished the bottles and Anne won't go away from my head. I looked at my design board where I pin all the fabrics I use. I touched the soft cloths and pushed some aside to see if the picture of my Anne was still there. It was just a simple picture of us in Paris. I knew then that she no longer loved me.

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I waited a few apartements down for Joe to leave in the morning. He did eventually around 9 and Anne had followed him out in one his shirts and pajams. She kissed him and Joe smiled stroking her hair. Gavin and Adrian came rushing out to hug their dad. Where is he going? He had a weekender with him and Anne didn't let go off his hand until he kissed it and stepped down. Joe enters the car waiting for him outside and Anne waved. I counted to a minute before the car made a turn at the corner. Anne had brought the kids back into the house and I got out carrying my gifts. When I knocked on the door Gavin immediately comes looking out through the glass. I smiled and touched his nose through the glass. I see him call Anne and she came to open the door. "Hey." I said as she opened it Gavin looking up at me with his smile and Adrian was coming over to see me. Oh he has grown my little Adrian and I can start to see my resemblance in him. There's no way Joe doesn't know yet.

"Sebastian what are you doing here?" She asked and pulls Gavin back a few inches away from me.

"I came to visit my favorite kids in the world." I smiled down at Gavin and Adrian. Anne couldn't hold them back because we had a deal and she knows the consequences.

"Uncle Sebastian we got your pins!" Gavin says and I hold up another gift. It was a toy plane you could assemble you self.

"Thank you!" Adrian pipes up and hugs me. I love this feeling and I looked at Anne. She didn't feel comfortable with me here. I got Adrian the same set of toy plane but in a different design. They thanked me again before they ran off to play with them.

"Aren't you going to let me in?" I asked Anne and she looks at me.

"Uh...yea sure come in." She says moving some things aside. We went upstairs to the kitchen and she stands on the other side of the counter away from me.

"Where's your husband?" I said looking around with one eyebrow arched.

"He's going on a short band business trip." She says busying her self with stirring the pancake mix.

"While he's gone do you want me to help you around?" I asked.

"Its fine I can handle them." She says and I stands closer.

"How is Adrian?" I asked and she looks at me.

"He's been doing well and he reminds me of you." She whispers. I reached out to touch her arm but she pulls away and stared at me. "Don't touch me." She says.

"I'm sorry." I back away.

"Why are you doing this to me?" She asked her eyes tearing up.

"What am I doing?" I asked.

"Everything. Why can't you just leave us alone. Let me live my own family while you can enjoy your own." She says and I wanted to just hug her.

"Because you don't know how much I love you and our son." I said and her hands shook as she faced me.

"You can't keep on doing this." She says and and I put my hand on the counter.

"I can, unless you want Joe to know or Adrain and Gavin." I said.

"If you love me why do you hurt me like this." She cries.

"Because I know how to fix you but I'm waiting for you to let me." I felt a stinging sensation on my cheek and I clutched my face. I looked at Anne raging in anger and she was staring at me.

"No you don't." She says.

"Anne..." I said and I heard the boys coming down.