Vampire Knight The Start of love. Yuki X Zero. PART 2 (#Watty2019)

Chapter 204 Panic Mode

Chapter 204 PANIC MODE

Zero gets off the phone with Kaname. Now worried. Now filled with panic. What if I broke the bonds? What if she leaves me? What if I can't get them back? The panic filling his mind and heart. Not able to concentrate on anything else. Realizing he will not get anywhere at work today. Due to this. He figures. He will call Yuki.

"Hey, babe. I miss you." Zero says. "It's nice to hear your voice. How is work?" Yuki asks. "Not good. I can't think about anything but you. I am going to come to pick you up. I want to spend some time with you. We need to be together." Zero states. "We are together Zero. " Yuki replies. "No. I mean spend time together. We need to go back to what we had. I miss it."Zero confesses. "I know. I do too." Yuki replies. "I'm coming to get you." Zero says.

Zero hangs up and heads out the door in a hurry. He feels. He needs to address this fast. So it doesn't get out of control. Zero making it to the Cafe in Record time. "Zero what's wrong? You look upset?" Yuki says staring at Zero coming in the door. Zero just grabs her and kisses her. Trying to get some reaction out of her. Some desire. She kisses back and doesn't push him away. Just he sees. She doesn't continue kissing. Like she use to. "Let's go out to lunch. I want to be with you all afternoon and night." Zero states. "Are you ok?" Yuki asks. "I don't know. I know. I just need you." Zero says.

Zero and Yuki walk out of the cafe, going to a nearby restaurant. Sitting down and having lunch. Zero trying to get as close to her as he could. Trying to do it without having to ask questions. He sees she doesn't push him away. She will hold his hand. Talk to him and even smile sweetly to him. Just no heat like before. The can't wait till he was inside her, The craving of his touches. Wasn't there. They sit at the table talking about regular things. Zero doing his best to stay calm and just enjoy. Not wanting to talk about private things in public anyway.

When they are done eating, Zero takes Yuki home. "Want to watch some Tv together Zero?" Yuki asks." Sure babe. That sounds nice. I will change and be right there." Zero responds. Hoping he can build and go back to what they had. Missing it so desperately. Zero gets changed and heads downstairs to the family room. Yuki already there in some fuzzy PJs. Watching Tv. Zero sits next to her, and she cuddles up to him. Which makes him feel good. He puts his arms around her. Holding her close. Moving his hand up and down her back. She just smiles and continues to watch tv.

After about an hour. Zero sees nothing has changed. He knows if he waits too long she is only going to fall asleep. He places a kiss on her head. Moving his hand up inside her shirt. Rubbing her back. "Does this feel good babe?" Zero asks. "Yes, it feels very good." She replies. Zero keeps rubbing her back, then places kisses on her neck. Running his hand to her left breast. Moving her body close to his. "Zero, can we finish the movie?" Yuki asks. Zero now knowing something is really wrong. She never said that to him. She would be on top of him by now. "Yuki we need to talk. I know something is going on. You need to talk to me." Zero responds. "Yuki taking off the tv. "I am just tried Zero." Yuki replies. "I know there is more than that to this. Its been a month since you let me make love to you. Every time I try. You have an excuse. That's not like you. Do you not want me anymore?"Zero asks. Not really ready for her answer." Zero. I haven't really been myself since that night in some departments. I do still love you though." Yuki answers. 

"What is going on. You don't drink from me either. Tell me how you feel? Tell me about that night. You need to let go of it." Zero states. " I don't have any sexual desire. I don't crave the blood either. I haven't since then. I still love and want to be with you. I just don't have the can't keep my hands off you thing going. I am sure it will come back." Yuki comments. "Yuki why didn't you get help sooner? Why did you just lay there? What is going on? Talk to me. Stop trying to protect me!" Zero snaps. "I didn't get help because I didn't want it. I wanted to just let go. When you left, there was only coldness towards me. You weren't going to come back to me. I didn't want to be here. I just tried to slip away. Feeling it would be better for you and Kaname. The pain would be gone for all of us. If you weren't coming back to me. I couldn't face the pain. I knew I wouldn't completely die. I am a pureblood. I would probably wind up in an ice coffin like Kaname did. Maybe get some peace. Give you two peace. The fear of you leaving me forever took over. I gave up." Yuki confesses. "Yuki. Why didn't you tell me? I am so sorry. I know that was and is your biggest fear. But that was only because I thought you cheated on me. I wouldn't ever leave you otherwise. You need to put the fears away. Did i break the bond? Is it gone forever?" Zero asks. "

 I don't think its broken. I think its just weaken. I still love you very much. My urge to protect you is still extremely strong. That part didn't go away. We just need to get our intimacy back." Yuki remarks. "We can't get it back. If you keep pushing me away. Are you afraid of me?" Zero asks. "I have fear, I never saw you turn on me like that before. I was always saying it was fear of you leaving. I guess its also fear from that as well. You didn't care what I said or did. You were filled with so much anger. So yes I do fear you." Yuki finally admits. "Oh, God. I am so sorry. I never wanted you to ever fear me in that way. I promise you it will never happen again. Please, I need you to fully forgive me." Zero asks. "I already forgave you. I just need to get over the rest of it. I do feel better letting it out." Yuki states." I wish you would talk to me more. You need to know you won't hurt me. I can't fix what I don't know is broken Yuki."Zero states. "I know. I can't help but want to protect you. I will do better with letting things out. I promise." Yuki remarks.

Yuki just cuddles up to Zero. Laying her head on his chest. Zero still upset, just feeling it will take time to get her fully back. At least she isn't running away. At least there are still feelings there.