Roses Diary [S.M]

Perfect strangers

Hi loves,

For the people who were wondering; ☝🏼 this is Luca. I thought that it would be nice to share some man candy on the Monday evening.

O, by the way! Here is a new (extra long) chapter!

Enjoy!

Ps. I still need some more questions for Rose her q&a! Let me know if you have any!!

Xoxo, M.
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"Are you sure that you are okay?." Luca eye me as I drown my second GinTonic within 20 minutes. Believe me, I need it.

"Yes, Luca."- I say a bit irritated. There it is ladies and gentlemen, my infamous temper. "I was already fine the previous 10 times when you asked if I was alright." Luca is right though, I am not okay. It feels like I am being choked. I can barely breath. Knowing that Shawn is here, in the exact same room as I am, it gives me major anxiety attacks. It was about to happen, me running into him. LA is a big city, for sure but there are limited amount of spots 'famous' people gather. I should have known that there was a chance that he would also be at this party. He loves Nobu.

"Damn..."- Anna voice enters my ear from behind. "What's up with the bitchy attitude?."

"Rose saw Shawn." Luca explains before I can ask her what she means with my bitchy attitude.

"You saw Shawn?!."- please, scream louder. I don't think that the everyone in here have heard you. "He is here?!."

No, he is in Toronto. I just saw a picture of him. That is why I am so upset. I actually want to say but I have to admit, that do sounds really bitchy. So, I respond by simply nodding my head.

"Damn... are you alright?." I sweat to God. If one more person asks if I am alright, I am going to scream. No, I am not alright but will I ever admit that to someone, also no. I wouldn't let him ruin my evening. He already caused enough damage in my life as it is.

"I am going to dance." I drown my, almost full, GinTonic glass in one go, place the glass on the bar en walk into the dancing crowd.

Why can nobody just let me be. It isn't going to help if everyone keeps asking if I am okay. I know that they mean well. Of course, I know but I am not a victim and I certainly wouldn't let me be treated like one. So what if Shawn is here. I will do me without him. Exactly like I have been doing for the past 1,5 years. And look where it got me. It's the proof that I will... no, I am absolutely fine without him. Shawn who?

I mingle myself with the crowd on the dance floor. Thank God for alcohol. The Gin makes my body feel like I am flooding. Exactly what I need right now.

I can feel the eyes of people around burning but I simply do not give a damn. I will do anything to make my mind turn off right now.

I feel two arms wrapping around my waist from behind. I stiffen for a second but once I sense the familiar perfume of Luca, I relax in his arms. "Relax... it's me." He whispers into my ear as he pulls me closer to his body.

I sigh softly as both of us move our bodies along the rhythm of the music.

"I am fine." I answer his unsolicited question. I don't know who I am trying to convince, him or myself.

"No, you are not but that is fine as well." He kiss the side of my head. Nobody other then us knows what we are actually talking about. I am sure that it looks from the outside that we are just a couple, who are simply sharing a moment on the dance floor together. Nobody knows that is actually going on. Nobody also seem to notice that Luca is gay. It is hard to miss the lustful eyes the girls around us make at him.