Roses Diary [S.M]

Unexpected events

"Chin to the left Rose." Flash.

"Shoulders back." Flash.

"Relax your mouth." Flash.

How the hell I am suppose to relax if people are keep yelling at me. I am doing a photoshoot for the beauty brand. ' The natural woman' is this campaign called. Believe me, with the amount of instruction I get, there is nothing natural about my pose anymore.

They told me if it was possible to 'suck in' my chin. Please tell me, how am I supposed to do that? I have never had to suck in my chin. I wasn't aware that I had one.

I have been here on set for over 6 hours. I was supposed to finish a hour ago and I can tell you, I am so dead ass tired. My head is spinning because of all the flashes in my eyes and I just want to go home.

Luckily, tonight we are flying to Canada to spend Christmas there. In the first instance, we wanted to go somewhere warm and beachy but because of our schedules it was simply impossible to arrange it. I had to work until today, a day before Christmas and Shawn has things planned between Christmas and New Years. So, we are literally flying to Canada for 2 days but hey, it is something. I am just glad to chill out for a bit and spend some time with my family and Shawn's. That is all I am asking for.

"Rose, smile with your eyes." The photographer yells. O yeah, the dude love that sentence. Does anyone knows how you make your eyes 'smile'? If someone knows, please tell me. This man is driving me fucking crazy. I am this close to losing my shit but I really try my hardest to keep cool. Easier said than done because I woke up with the biggest headache ever. Camera flashes and headaches are not friends, I can tell you.

Luckily, Scott came with me to the set. So, he has been trying to make it as comfortable for me as possible. He has the painkillers prepared for whenever I need them. God send.

"How much longer is this going to take? We are far past the agreed time." Scott steps in as he sees that I am about to snap.

"We are done. Thank you for your patient, Rose."

Praise the lord for Scott.

I shake the photographer's hand and walk off the set to Scott. He is already waiting with a sweater in his hand.

"Here. Put this on."

I shake my head. "My body feels like it is cooking from the inside." This day has really tired me out. My body is just overworked from the past two weeks. I didn't had a free moment at all. The only time I saw Shawn was when one of us went over to the others house to spend the night but because we were both so tired, we both felt asleep as soon as our heads pit the pillow.

"You have to dress up before we go outside. It's cold."

"If you think it is cold here in LA, then you will die in Toronto. It is 10 degrees below zero at the moment."

"I do not understand why you go there." Scott mumbles behind me as I grab my bag.

"I cannot help it that my boyfriend is a Canadian and he happens to like it there." What do you want me to do about it? It is not like I can ask him to change from nationality, can I? No, I cannot.

"Doesn't mean you have to follow him. You are already not 100% fit and if you catch a cold there, or worse the flu, then we have a problem."

"Don't worry dad. I will eat extra fruit for vitamins."

He rolls his eyes at me playfully as I crunch down to collect all the stuff I threw on the ground earlier. "Do you want to grab something to eat before I drop you off at your apartment?."