Roses Diary [S.M]

Rise and shine

Hi loves,

First of all, how is everyone doing? I want to apologize for the lack of updates. It is so hard to find time to write when my uni change the dates of my exams all the time. I was supposed to finish last week but now, my last exam is Wednesday. So, please bare with me. I promise after that I will upload new chapters more often.

For now, here's a new one!
For now, goodnight from Amsterdam.

With love, M.
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"Babe..."- I say out of breath. Who knew that becoming pregnant meant no stamina anymore. Also the fact that I barely have eaten anything today, is not helping. "You are walking too fast."

If you would say that Shawn is doing a competition fast walking through this hospital, you would probably also believe it.

"Sorry..."- he looks down at me and slowdown his pass. "I just want to..."

I take his hand and squeezes it softly. "I know you want to see her. It is just that this baby makes me out of breath." We don't want to have a fainting episode, now would we?

I look down at my dress covered baby bump and I swear I can see his little kicks through the fabric. He is getting stronger every day.

"It's bigger than it was yesterday." He mumbles as I find him also staring at my belly.

"It's huge." Well, huge for my body. I am sure if I ask my doctor, she will say that I need to eat more. Nevertheless, the bump is on full show in this thin dress material. Probably because I have been hiding my bump with a large sweater most of the time but today it is just so hot in LA. I had to change out of my previous outfit I was wearing because the moment I stepped outside, it felt like I was going to have a stroke.

Shawn shrugs his shoulders. "That only means that we are getting closer to meeting him."

I nod my head and smile. He is right. The bigger my belly get, the sooner I will be able to hold him in my arms. So weird to think that in a couple of months, we are going to be parents. Such a scary but exciting thought.

As we walk through the busy waiting room of the hospital, I feel all eyes on us. I know that is nothing new but I feel really vulnerable for some reason. Probably because this is the first time my baby bump is visible in public. Like I said, I have been hiding it for the outside world. Not because I feel ashamed or something. Absolutely not but it is more like I wanted to keep this for ourselves. I know that within a hour, pictures of us will be plastered over the internet.

I glance at Shawn, but he doesn't seems bothered at all. I swear, sometimes I think he doesn't even notice the attention that is on us as soon as wel step into a room. Maybe you get used to fame and attention after a certain amount of time, however, I am not on that point yet.

With eyes on us, we walk through the waiting room, towards the elevators. We have been here so many times. It is not that we need help to find Aaliyah's room.

After a short elevator ride, we arrive on the right floor. Luckily, the hallways are less busy and nobody really seems to notice us. Or do not care. Whatever it is, it is a good feeling.

Aaliyah lays in a private section of the hospital. That means that you need to go through a 'checkpoint' to enter the area. But because every single nurse knows us by now, she simply opens the door when she sees us.

"Mr and Mrs Mendes."- Kelsey is such a sweetheart. I think she is around the same age as I am. This is her first year of working after graduating from med school. "It is so good to see you."