Roses Diary [S.M]

I got you

"Thanks for coming with me." I wrap my arms around Ali and Anna, in a groups hug. "I don't know what I would ever do without the two of you."

"We will always be there for you."

I tilt my head back and smile a little. "I know. Go home and rest."- I softly patch Anna's large, round baby bump. "You two need rest."- I look to Ali and Brian, who hangs in the back. "You all need rest."

"What about you? You need to rest as well after the day you had." I do but I am not going to leave Shawn by himself.

I nod my head in agreement. "I will ask Shawn what he wants to do."

"Please get some rest." Ali says as she put her coat on.

"I will see what I can do. I will call you guys tomorrow, okay?."

I wave to the girls as they walk down the hallway, towards the elevators.

I raise my eyebrow at Brian, when he doesn't seem to follow them.

He gives me an apologetic smile and walks over to me, to give me a hug. "Are you alright?."

I shrugs my shoulders. I honestly have no idea how I feel. Empty? Exhausted? Emotional drained? Probably a mixture of everything.

"I can stay with him so, you can home and get some rest." He suggest.

I shake my head. "You can stay of course, but I am going nowhere. My place is next to him. In good and in bad times." A flashback from our vows flashes in front of my eyes.

"Take care of him for me, alright? You know how he is probably blaming himself for this."

I sigh deeply. "My task has only just begun." Trying to keep Shawn sane is going to be a tough thing to do. I know him better then anyone else. Although, I don't know the story behind the accident, I just know that regardless, he is going to blame himself.

"I will be back in the morning, okay?." Brian press a kiss against my temple and squeezes my upper arm gently.

I lean against the wall until I see them disappear into the elevator.

I rub my bare face and look down at my small baby bump, when I feel a soft little kick. "Don't worry baby. You have the strongest daddy I know." I whisper softly against my unborn child before turning around and walk back to the room everyone is in.

Completely lost in thoughts, I didn't noticed that someone was in the same hallway as me until I feel a soft tap on my shoulder.

I spin around with wide eyes, but relax when I see a nurse. "Sorry. I didn't mean to scare you."

"No, you didn't."- I reply politely. Although we both know that she did. "I was lost in thoughts. I didn't hear you."

She smiles close mouthed at me and nod her head in understanding. "I was wondering if you needed something to eat or drink."

"O no, I am fine. Thank you." The last time I have eaten something was the sandwich, but that was hours ago, but I cannot eat. Not after today.

I can see in her eyes that she wants to object but keeps it to herself, and simply nod. "What about the others? I can go in there and ask..."- it is only now I notice the cart next to her with coffee and tea.

"I am sure that coffee will do them good." It has been a long as day.

"Sure."- she fills up 3 cups and hand them to me. "Thanks."

"You are welcome." She smiles before turning around and continue her way down the hallway.

I balance the cups in my hands and continue my way as well, to room 12. I hate that fucking number now by the way. Fucking 12.