Roses Diary [S.M]

The scars you left behind

Hi loves,

You know what! Here's another one! From this week I will really stick to uploading at certain days but for now, I am way too excited to share it with you!

Let me know what you think of the chapter!

Ps. Who is ready for Shawn to get told off?

Xoxo, M.
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"I don't know ann.." I mumble as I walk through the hallway to my bedroom, followed by Anna hot on my heels.

"Come on, do it for me."

"I don't think that it's such a good idea." Anna is trying desperately to drag me with her to the party of Gabriella. She bonded with her at the party in Nobu from a couple of weeks ago and tonight she is throwing her birthday party.

"It will be fun and you can catch up with her. You promised that you would call her but you didn't. She has been whining non stop about when she was going to see you again. She misses you."

"I know but I simply haven't had the time to see her yet."

"And she understands but if you come along with me tonight, then you can catch up... please..."

"You know Shawn is going to be there." It's not that I don't want to go to Gabriella her party or see her, it's more about seeing Shawn again. My goal was to avoid him as much as possible. So far that goal hasn't really been succeeding.

"Who cares. I will make sure that he will stay away from you."

"And how are you planning on doing so?." I let my body fall on my bed as I look at Anna, who is standing in the entrance of the room.

"Does that mean that you will come if I manage to keep him away?." She says hopeful. Anna and I had a long talk about what she did. I told her about why I wasn't okay with seeing Shawn. I came to the discovery that it's not because I hate Shawn. It's because every time I look at him, it reminds me of the moment my heart broke into a thousand pieces and I lost some pieces along the way. My heart has never been the same after him. Even though, it has almost been 2 years since it all happened, I am still not over it. Luckily, she understands and apologized. I probably told you this before, but I cannot stay mad at Anna. So, we hugged it out and we are fine again. People make mistakes but you cannot stay mad forever, right?

"Gabriella would be so happy if you came along."

"I don't even have anything to wear." I know that I am not going to win this thing from her. She wouldn't stop until I say yes and it would be really nice to see Gabriella. She has been such a good friend to me over the years and always supported me, all though She barely knew me back then. The least I can do is show up at her birthday party.

"No worries."- Anna claps into her hands enthusiastically. "I will find you something." Yeah, that I wasn't afraid of...

"Are you crazy? What are you trying to do? Sell me like some hoe?." I stare back at my reflection in the mirror. I didn't knew that I owned something so slutty. I mean, since when do I have a hot pink, tight as a second skin dress? I cannot remember that I bought this.

"You look hot though."

"I look like trash. I can already see the headlines tomorrow: Rose Williams; Youtuber or pornostar?." No, thank you. I will pass. I think that Scott is going to have a heart attack if he sees me going out like this.

"You will be hot news."

"I will be rather old news and forgotten, then I will ever be photographed like this."- no career it is. "Find something else. I am not wearing this."