Roses Diary [S.M]

It is getting real

Hi babes,

Okay. So, just some thoughts that I need your opinion on.

I still have too many things and ideas I want to write about but this book is already quite long.

So, I was thinking; what about another book after this one? Would you guys be into it? It will probably take off right after Rose has given birth. So, let me know what you think of that idea and if you like it. If not, I am going to wrap this book up!

With all the love, M.

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"So, I was thinking..." we have been bake in LA for 4 days now. The remaining days we had left in Amsterdam, we spend with Shawn his parents, our sisters and Ali and her family.

Things are somewhat normal again. I am still not 100% okay with everything that went down between Karen and I mostly, but she did has tried to make amends. We had a talk. She apologized and talked and I mostly listen. Turns out that she is just scared. What else can I say about it? It happened. There is no one who can change what has happened. So, lets leave it with that. When she got used to the idea and warmed a bit up, she actually seemed somewhat excited about the baby.

"About what?." Shawn says, not really paying attention to me as he is watching a ice hockey game between the Toronto Maple Leafs and... ? I do not really know or care. I am not really into sport that much to be honest.

"Well, about you said back in Amsterdam. About us getting married on a beach somewhere."

And that statement gets his attention. He looks away from the large screen we have in the media room and turns his head to me. "You thought about it?."

I slowly nod my head.

"But you said that you wanted a big, well planned wedding."

"I did and I still want that but I also want us to be a family when this little bean arrives." I am 9 weeks pregnant. My once flat stomach, is getting more bloated every day. If I wear clothes, you cannot see it but once I undress and know my body, you definitely can see the start of a little bump.

"What do you mean? We already are a family." He says and nods with his head to Lou, who is fast asleep on his lap.

"Yes, okay we are but I want the same last name as my child." If we do not get married, you have to arrange all kind of different things before the kid can officially be a Mendes. If you are married and you give birth, the kid automatically gets the name.

"Okay so, what do you want?."

"Well, I thought what if we go to a island, somewhere far away and private. Fly our families and closest friends in, have a small ceremony on a private beach and later, when I am not fat anymore, we can have our big wedding."

"So, two weddings?."

"Yeah, the first one if really just for us. In a small, intimate setting and the other wedding is my big as wedding I have dreamed of since I was a little girl."

"Small and intimate?."- he mumbles and scratches his chin as if he wasn't the one who first brought this idea up. "I like it. In fact, I like it very much. The first one is mainly about celebrating our love and union, and the other one is about the party?."

"Well, the big one is also about love but then way bigger. Plus, our child will be there by that time."

A big smile takes over his face. He drops his phone, pull the blanket off his body and crawls on his knees, over the large couch/bed over to me.