Roses Diary [S.M]

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Hi babies,

How is everyone doing? I am sorry that I do not update as much as I would like to. It is just that I am extremely busy with work and since it is allowed again to visit friends, I really had some catching up time to do with them!

However, I hope everyone is excited for this new chapter! Let me know what you thought of it!

All the love,
M.

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"How fucking stupid can you be, Shawn?." It has been a hour and a half since Shawn's blown up in front of the paparazzi. Of course, by now it has spread all over the Internet.
Andrew almost had a heart attack when Shawn called him and told him what happened. After freaking out for 10 minutes straight, he hanged up the phone and rushed over here. While Andrew was having a mental break down, I called Scott and told him that it was best for him to come over as well. I know how Andrew can be and when he gets like that, we usually use Scott as our protection shield. And, if I would not have told Scott about the whole drama immediately, he would have freaked out as well. One hysterical manager is enough at once.

So, here we are... about 45 minutes later, sitting at the kitchen island, looking back and forward as I try to follow Andrew as he storms through our kitchen.

"Andrew.. bro..."- Shawn tries to reason with him. Fat chance but it is very entertaining to watch.

"No, the time for pet names is over."- I swear, this guy is going to have a heart attack right here in my kitchen. "Do you know what kind of 'war' you have created by lashing out like that?."

I turn my head from Andrew to Shawn. In the corner of my eye I see Scott turning the popcorn bag towards me. I literally found the winning ticket with Scott as my manager. This man enjoys conflict just as much as me, as long as it do not involve us of course.

I smirk at Scott before I grab a hand full of popcorn and pop them one by one into my mouth.

"I do not regret what I have done, Andrew."- much to my surprise Shawn does not back down. Interesting... "I should have spoken up a long time ago."

"But not the way you just did, Shawn."- Andrew is clearly growing more frustrated. "The way you acted, you only have made it much worse for your selves."

"I only responded the way I did because I do not know what to do anymore. Can't you see that this way of living is killing us?."- I stop chewing my popcorn as I see that Shawn is getting emotional. "How would you have responded when you get anxiety every time you have to step out? How would you feel when your wife cannot go outside and live a normal life because she gets jumped on by paparazzi, especially now that she is pregnant?."- with tears in his eyes, he looks away from Andrew to me quickly and points at me. "She deserves to enjoy her pregnancy. God knows what has happened the first time around. I try everything in my power to prevent that from happening, okay?! Or how would you feel when you have to comfort your wife every time she gets home because grown up men yell the most horrific things to her? I fear for the life of my unborn son. If this doesn't stop the kid will never know what it is going to be like to have a normal life. I know that Rose and I have chosen to be in the spotlights. I know that but this is getting out of hand. We cannot live our life's anymore. This needs to stop because if it doesn't, I will put my family first and takes us away out of this lifestyle. We will move away out of Los Angeles and live an anonymous life somewhere. My career means nothing if it is harming my family. So, tell me Andrew... what else should I have done? Because I really do not know what else I can do anymore to make people understand!."

It is deathly quiet in the kitchen. Other then Shawn's heavy breathing, you can hear a pin drop.

Scott resits next to me on the high chair. His playfully mood gone.