Roses Diary [S.M]

Motherly concerns

"What about Samuel?."

"Samuel?." I look up as my head lays on Shawn's lap as we fly on around the 41.000 ft high. "I don't know. I am not obsessed with the name."

It is Thursday morning. Around 7 am. About a hour ago we took off from Los Angeles and are on our way to New York for a quick refill of kerosine before we take off for Amsterdam. By the time we will arrive in my home country, it will be in the middle of the night.

So, we have booked a hotel room for the first night although my mom objected against it. I know my family and I know that they also wouldn't be happy if their beauty sleeps are being interrupted, even though they say they do not mind. I probably know them better than they know themselves.

Shawn was determined to go by privet jet and not fly commercial. 'There are too many bad germs and chances to catch some nasty virus if you fly commercial' were his words. So, We have paid the couple of thousands extra to fly private. In my opinion it is a complete waste of money, but I will do whatever to keep him calm. This whole experience has been stressful for him as well.

"Alright. Um... what about Liam? Liam is a nice name, isn't it?."

"Are you really going to name the list of most popular boys names in Canada?." Bro, I am not stupid. Of course I have Googled it as well. I also was that list.

"What? No, of course not." He tries to keep his face straight but fails miserably. "Okay, you got me but I do like the name Liam though."

"I thought that you were convinced that little bean is a girl?." We have decided to keep calling the baby little bean. We do not know yet if we want to tell the outside world what the gender is of the baby, once we know. We didn't had the talk yet about how much of our little one we are going to show on Social Media and stuff. I really want to protect my child for all the horrors of media. And I do not know how I am going to respond if someone says something nasty about my child. I swear that I will look up their address and go to their house. So, yeah... that's a though decision to make.

"I am but there is still a 0.01 % that she will be a he. We have to be prepared for that 0.01%."

"Well, I think that it is going to be a boy anyway." I just have a feeling. Call it motherly intuition but something just tells me that we are going to have a little Shawn. "And to answer your question, I do like Liam but I do not see myself calling our child like that."

Do you even know how hard it is to pick out a name you both like? That shit is damn hard.

"Okay, so what name do you see your son have?."

"Well, I always liked; James. It is classy and beautiful." I always had a thing for that name.

"Mmhm.."- Shawn says as he looks down at me. "Not a bad name."

"I also like Elijah but I know you do not like it."

"I am not over the moon with the name, no."

"Well, I thought something like; Elijah James Mendes. I do like the way it sounds."

"Maybe it is not a bad name after all. What about a girl? I am sure you already know what names you like if it is a girl."

"Obviously."- girls, be honest. How many of us knew already how we are going to name our kids every since were younger. "I always had a thing for the name Joanne, but I saw somewhere the name; Fallon. I think that is stunning as well."

"Mmhm.. Fallon Joanne? I also like the names combined."

Well... I do not know about that to be honest. "Or, we pick one and give the other name to our next kid."