Roses Diary [S.M]

Empty words

Hi babes,

I hope everyone is doing well?

Who is ready for some drama? It has been going too well for too long, hasn't it? 😏

Well, enjoy!

Love, M.

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"It's a wrap!."- the photographer yells after the longest and most uncomfortable 10 minutes of my life. Lingerie shoots are uncomfortable but when you are underneath the constant glance of your man, yeah... that makes it even worse. "Thank you so much people."

I let out a deep breath, that I didn't knew I was holding in. Mathew immediately jumps up away from me. I cannot blame the guy. If I felt the way Shawn was glaring at us, then I am sure that he felt it as well. Poor guy.

"Here." I look up at the sound of Mathew's voice. I find him with my robe in his hands.

I lift myself up from the bed and give him a warm smile. "That is sweet. Thank you." I mumble as he helps me get on the robe.

"I know how uncomfortable it makes you." He smiles sweetly at me before he glances at something, or can I better say someone behind me. "I better go before your fiancé is going to kill me." He jokes.

"I am sorry. It is just..."- How am I going to explain why Shawn is such a jealous bitch sometimes, without being rude about it.

"O no, I understand him. I wouldn't like it to see my girlfriend like that as well, with another dude."

I roll my eyes and give him a quick hug. "Give Stacey a hug from me, will you?."

"I will. It was good to see you again, Rose." He says with his charming smile.

"You too." He gives me a wink, before he walks away in nothing but his boxers, to thank the photographer.

Mathew and I are total opposites. There is not a spark of insecureness in his body. He is walking around like he is fully clothed, but maybe it is different for men and women. There is always this social stigma of girls and how they should act or more importantly, how they should not.

I turn around and look at Shawn and our group of friends, and begin to walk over to them. "You were amazing babe." Luca says with a wide smile on his face.

"Yeah. It almost looked like a shoot from the Playboy." Brian and his fucking smart mouth. Luckily, Anna gives him a smack on his head before I can say anything.

"Auch..."- he growls and narrow his eyes at Anna. "What was that for."

"Stop being rude."- she hisses at him. "She looked amazing. It kinda made me miss my old body."

"It was nothing." I roll my eyes at my friends before I look at Shawn.

"Hey."- I try to read his mood as I step closer to him, to give him a kiss.

"Hey." He mumbles softly. I expect him to push me away, when I lean in for a kiss but he lets me. He barely respond but he doesn't push me away.

Our eyes meet. "What is wrong?." I try to read his eyes but there is nothing. Just a blank stare.

"Rose, what are you going to do tonight?." Anna interrupts before Shawn can respond. "Now that we are not allowed to join them on their 'boys night out'."

"O yeah, I was meaning to ask you. You can come over and join me and Lou on our 'all you can eat' movie marathon." I already went grocery shopping and bought everything I was in the mood for. "You both can." I am almost 100% sure that Luca is going out to party or spend his evening with Jack, but better ask before he feels left out.