Roses Diary [S.M]

New friends

"It still feels weird." I look up at my husband as we are navigating through the busy main street of Amsterdam to a much more secure street.

We are in Amsterdam for over 1,5 month already and God, what was moving here a good idea. We liked it here so much, that after a month, we decided to buy the penthouse we have been renting. It is so nice to have a place here to call home. After a week of us moving here people did had found out that we are spending some time my home town, nonetheless minus a few pictures here and there, the buzz about us being here had worn off rather fast. It gave us the opportunity to just relax, catch our breath after the hectic period we had and be a normal couple for once. So, that is what we did. Be normal. Go to restaurants, watch movies at the cinema among other people. If we want to go to the movies in America, we have to rent out the whole theater but here, people do not really give a shit about who we are. Of course, they recognize us but for the most of the time, they let us be and that was exactly what we needed. A touch back to reality.

Ebony, my pediatrician, flew in twice and due to the relax lifestyle here, our baby boy is back on the weight he is supposed to be at 29 weeks. So, that is good news. You can see at the size of my bump that the kid has put on some weight. At almost 30 weeks pregnant, I feel like I am going to burst at any second. Every morning when I wake up, I feel like my belly has grown even more. Ebony has said that it is normal though, simply because the kid had some catching up to do. Now that I am further along in my pregnancy, and my body starts to hurt more and more, Ebony suggested that Shawn and I would try out some yoga pregnancy classes. Today we are going there for the first time so, I am really excited.

"What?." I mumble as I try my best to keep up with Shawn's fast pace. I had always trouble keeping up with those long legs of his but now that the pregnancy waddling has kicked in. I cannot describe how much I hate it by the way. I feel like I have to run to keep up with him. "Jesus, human... slow down."

"O sorry..."- he immediately slows down and chuckle softly. "I keep forgetting."

"What? That I am pregnant?." It is extremely difficult to miss that. This belly is getting huge.

"No, that you cannot walk that fast when you have to waddle."

"I do not waddle." I narrow my eyes at him.

"Of course not." He smirks at me as he leans down and kiss the top of my head. "All I am saying is that if you did waddle, I find it extremely cute."

"But I don't. So..."- I did not come to terms with it yet. Give it some time. "But what feels weird?." Back to the topic.

With a large smile plastered on his face, he looks at as he shake his head. "That we can walk around without being ambushed from all sides. I feel so free and relaxed here. I haven't felt like this in a long while."

"Me too. It was such a good decision to come here. I know that if we would have stayed in LA, I wouldn't have been able to enjoy my pregnancy as much as I do here."

"Yeah, you are glowing." He says with admiration in his voice. I look up at him, only to find him already looking at me, studying my face. "The most gorgeous woman I have ever seen in my life." He adds.

"Yeah, when I am skinny again." I simply do not understand how Shawn can still find me attractive. Over the last 1,5 month since we got here, we have had more sex then we did before I got pregnant and you know how much we enjoyed our daily rolls in the sheets. I always enjoyed our 3/4 times a day sex marathons but now with a belly in between us, I feel way less attractive. Shawn on the other hand doesn't seem to be bothered by it at all. In fact, he seems even more into it then he already was.

"You know that that is not true. The only difference is now that we have to be a little bit more careful. I cannot bend you as easily in different positions as I normally do."